December 31, 2011

It's the end of the year.. and I must say this year.. has been one of the most historical years of my life..

I would never have imagined getting attached to the most beautiful girl in the whole wide world.

Elaine Tan Shi En.

It is more than an honor, more than a blessing, more than an answered prayer, more than a dream came true that I may now call you my partner, my girlfriend, my whole life.


I thank God for this opportunity to be hers. I thank God for the accidental meeting that you have purposed so that we were able to get to know each other.

May 2012 be an amazing year for the both of us. May our relationship continue to blossom and that we will continue to cherish, love and treasure each other in a whole new level.


I LOVE YOU ELAINE.

Thank you for your love. Thank you for choosing me as your boyfriend. Thank you so much.

December 10, 2011

I guess.. we have been having too much fights lately... even during at 4.00am while we were on Skype..we actually had a fight again. Oh man. *shakes head* What is going on with me. Why do I demand so much from her? :( I'm so sorry dear.

I felt so bad.. just thinking about how Elaine must have felt. She loves me so much, yet I doubted her love for me. How? Why? Kevin, are you expecting too much from her?

Worst, later that night, she said she wished she could just disappear.. and that really saddened me even more because she felt that she was not good enough for me and that I deserved someone better.

No, Elaine.. I don't deserve anyone else in my life but you. Only you Elaine.. only you.

December 9, 2011

Phew. Today... it was much better, despite both of us having a small fight during the afternoon. I guess expectations for each other came into play... and because of that, Elaine got hurt. :( I'm sorry Elaine.. I'm sorry. Good thing later on we recovered as we continued to talk on Skype. I felt that I needed to hug her so tight in my arms.

That evening I went for my new team bonding session at a Japanese buffet restaurant called 'Yakimix'. I was mainly the photographer then, and boy did I really enjoyed taking lots and lots of photos.

The dinner took quite some time and the next thing I know, Elaine already had to sleep. I told her to sleep first, and would promise to wake her up later at 4.00am so that she can continue to do her assignments. We bid each other goodnight and would be looking forward to chat with her later. :)

December 8, 2011

I... woke up late. Again. Overslept. Urgh. What is wrong with me? :(
Today was really a bad day... not only me and Elaine got into an argument, but also I seemed to have hurt her with my words.

I'm so sorry Elaine.. I really didn't mean to.. I really really love you. I mean it.

December 7, 2011

Here I am writing.

To my dearest Elaine, whom I love and care so much.

I know I have caused you so much pain,

So much disappointments from time to time.

I am not perfect, not perfect as you thought I am,

I am but flawed, with a set of weaknesses and traits that are considered ugly.

Despite all that,

I vow to be the best person I can be in your life.

I vow to always care,

and love you,

just like how God loves you and me.




You are so special.

You are my answered prayer.

You are one of God's greatest gift to me.

And I cherish you.



10 more days.

10 more days till I finally get to see you.

:)

December 6, 2011

Gosh. I was supposed to wake her up this morning but.

I OVERSLEPT. Oh my gosh. WHY. Elaine was definitely gracious enough to have forgiven me but really I felt so bad. *Sigh*. I guess I should stop working out right after work. It seems to make me more tired these days..

December 5, 2011

I accompanied her all night long as she did her assignments. I think I must be getting really old as I can't seem to be able to stay awake all night anymore. Oh man. I'm an old man! Noooooooo *echoes* *screams in horror*.

Jokes asides, it really is a wonderful thing to be able to see her online. Her beauty, cuteness -- unmatched. Her voice - angelic. Her smiles - leaves me breathless. Her laughs - makes my whole world.

I love you so much Elaine. 12 more days!