:))))
It is officially Elaine very most special day. Sadly I don't know why her driving exams would be on today, so I took the chance to pray for her and assured her that everything will be going on well. In the end she managed to pass the driving test, however for the test on the slope.. she failed. Aww :( Poor Elaine :( I knew how badly she wanted to pass for this test.. and know she has to retake, at the same time have to fork out extra $$$. Sigh. Why are driving tests so... unfair. :( First they treat their students harshly, always scolding them, intimidating them, making rude and unpolite gestures towards them. Just because they are the instructor, doesn't mean they can do that to the students. Aren't the students the ones paying them in the first place?! GRRRR. I WANT TO BITE. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
But hey, a small miracle happened. The accessories that I have bought from Ashley since last April has finally arrived at Elaine's place! And you know what is best? It came right when she arrived back at home! :D I hope she liked them... I personally chose the key and the heart.. which signifies 'the key to your heart'. Cool right? She then posted it on Facebook and showed everyone it. Happy, I am. Most importantly, happy, she is. :)
Later on at night.. it was supposed to be the final surprise for her. I would sing a song and post the video for her to personally see.. however.. SIGH. The uploading process always failed! I was so focus on showing that video to Elaine.. but Elaine wanted me to talk to her instead just before her birthday day ended. I only managed to quickly post a birthday wish, and belated wish to compensate for the recording but... boy.. was she so disappointed. I tried my best to console her.. however the disappointment was just too great. I then cried too, and I really cried bitterly because of what a big letdown I was to her. When everyone else has failed her, and her hope was me alone, yet even I let her down. I felt hopeless, miserable, terrible, unworthy to be forgiven, utterly totally disappointed towards myself and so much more. I had prepare everything to work out well.. but who would have thought the last surprise did not work out, instead it led to a big mess.
Elaine.. I'm just so sorry. So sorry to have ruin your most important day of the year. T.T
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
September 27, 2011
Today was rather interesting @@. Promised to give her a wake up call, however I woke up with my electricity down, with the strong wind blowing causing my windows to flip around. I managed to give her a short call, however the line suddenly got cut, which caused me to resort to my GPRS to Whatsapp message her. So to cut the story short, I had to rush to work quickly. Was really worried for her...
We manage to check up on each other throughout the day. I was really glad she was alright and all. Thought she might be angry or sad that I had ignored her because of what had happened early this morning. I got permission from my supervisor to call her for a few minutes. Really love my supervisor a lot. Funny yet so sporting and caring to his fellow subordinates :) I then called Elaine up, chatted with her on the phone for a short while. I really like it when people shows their concern over me. In fact, I'm even happier to know that there is someone out there who is waiting for me.. hehe.
She didn't know I had actually planned to surprise her today. I coordinated things with Jonathan to get me two stalks of rose, one white and one red - which signifies my love for her, and to show the purity of my love for her too. Really, big credits goes to Jonathan. He managed to give the roses to her and boy was she so happy :) She then posted on Facebook and.. the rest is history. It was more like a public announcement that we were a couple, but still, unofficial because I would need to ask the permission of her parents. I can't wait! :D A bit scary but hey, I have faith man. RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. A lion's boldness and courage is something that no one can mess with. Hehe.
Later on she went for the Mid-Week Service at church. She was already so exhausted and tired. Aww. Poor Elaine. After that she had a long fellowship too.. and right at 12.00am sharp, I called her up to wish her Happy Birthday :)
Happy 18th Birthday Elaine Tan Shi En :)
The love of my life. The most precious of all. My love for you is more than what you can imagine. :')
We manage to check up on each other throughout the day. I was really glad she was alright and all. Thought she might be angry or sad that I had ignored her because of what had happened early this morning. I got permission from my supervisor to call her for a few minutes. Really love my supervisor a lot. Funny yet so sporting and caring to his fellow subordinates :) I then called Elaine up, chatted with her on the phone for a short while. I really like it when people shows their concern over me. In fact, I'm even happier to know that there is someone out there who is waiting for me.. hehe.
She didn't know I had actually planned to surprise her today. I coordinated things with Jonathan to get me two stalks of rose, one white and one red - which signifies my love for her, and to show the purity of my love for her too. Really, big credits goes to Jonathan. He managed to give the roses to her and boy was she so happy :) She then posted on Facebook and.. the rest is history. It was more like a public announcement that we were a couple, but still, unofficial because I would need to ask the permission of her parents. I can't wait! :D A bit scary but hey, I have faith man. RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. A lion's boldness and courage is something that no one can mess with. Hehe.
Later on she went for the Mid-Week Service at church. She was already so exhausted and tired. Aww. Poor Elaine. After that she had a long fellowship too.. and right at 12.00am sharp, I called her up to wish her Happy Birthday :)
Happy 18th Birthday Elaine Tan Shi En :)
The love of my life. The most precious of all. My love for you is more than what you can imagine. :')
Monday, September 26, 2011
September 26, 2011
We had a good chat again this morning. Kept reaffirming our love for each other. Her voice is so beautiful.. so mesmerizing. Wish I could just listen to her all day long. :)
Throughout the day, we chatted on Google Talk. Asides from checking how each other were doing, we also spoke about setting more boundaries between ourselves. Felt really bad for crossing out of line at times, but she assured her that it is okay, and that we will both work together towards making this whole relationship work for the better :)
Later on at night, I got the chance to do her a great favor with her assignments. It really feels good when you are able to lend a hand to the person you care and love so much, especially when they are really stressed and bogged down with a lot of work and responsibilities. I LOVE the Bee Cover Design that she did! It looked really cute and it gives you that kind of happy, joyful mood :)
We 'indirectly' spoke on Skype before we ended the day. Though it was short, I still do feel happy to be there for her despite being tired myself. I didn't mind at all in fact. She is just too precious in my life. :')
Throughout the day, we chatted on Google Talk. Asides from checking how each other were doing, we also spoke about setting more boundaries between ourselves. Felt really bad for crossing out of line at times, but she assured her that it is okay, and that we will both work together towards making this whole relationship work for the better :)
Later on at night, I got the chance to do her a great favor with her assignments. It really feels good when you are able to lend a hand to the person you care and love so much, especially when they are really stressed and bogged down with a lot of work and responsibilities. I LOVE the Bee Cover Design that she did! It looked really cute and it gives you that kind of happy, joyful mood :)
We 'indirectly' spoke on Skype before we ended the day. Though it was short, I still do feel happy to be there for her despite being tired myself. I didn't mind at all in fact. She is just too precious in my life. :')
Sunday, September 25, 2011
September 25, 2011
One day has passed after her most anticipated birthday celebration. Was so happy when to see the pictures of her celebration. It was really really grand! The food, the fellowship... ah.. wishing so badly to be there. I heard that one of her wishes was for me to come back to Malaysia faster. Hehe. I can't wait to fulfill that wish for her! :D
She spent most of her day finishing up her work and assignments. The course she is taking sure is really suited well for her. It is like as if God already prepared her for this course! You rock, Father God!
Later on we Skyped. Just so wonderful to see her in person. She is so gorgeously beautiful that I can't even afford to take away from eyes off of her. We had a good chat later that night. How I wish the night would never end. :)
She spent most of her day finishing up her work and assignments. The course she is taking sure is really suited well for her. It is like as if God already prepared her for this course! You rock, Father God!
Later on we Skyped. Just so wonderful to see her in person. She is so gorgeously beautiful that I can't even afford to take away from eyes off of her. We had a good chat later that night. How I wish the night would never end. :)
Saturday, September 24, 2011
September 24, 2011
Today is a special day!!! We are going to celebrate Elaine's birthday!! One whole month's preparation, and finally it all comes to this :)
I acted the whole day as if it was just going to be a normal day. Hehe. Later on that night after service, she was finally surprised and brought to Saujana, the place where Ian rented to have a BBQ Birthday Party! :) I couldn't get the details of how her birthday was celebrated, but I do know that one of her birthday wishes was for me to come back fast.
AWW. ::melts::
After the whole party, I asked if she felt surprised with the whole thing, but she said the events on the day itself got her quite suspicious. Haha. Imagine, a lot of people were asking whether she was coming for service that day, and so on. Asides from that, there were also people acting rather unusual, not as their true selves. Haha. She's pretty sharp. :p
We had an amazing time of conversation before we slept. I even took the opportunity to thank her for all the nice pictures she sent to me. I felt I should really give back to her more in return. She is just so awesome!!!
If only I could really be there for her just now. ::Sigh:: Soon.. Soon.. :)
I acted the whole day as if it was just going to be a normal day. Hehe. Later on that night after service, she was finally surprised and brought to Saujana, the place where Ian rented to have a BBQ Birthday Party! :) I couldn't get the details of how her birthday was celebrated, but I do know that one of her birthday wishes was for me to come back fast.
AWW. ::melts::
After the whole party, I asked if she felt surprised with the whole thing, but she said the events on the day itself got her quite suspicious. Haha. Imagine, a lot of people were asking whether she was coming for service that day, and so on. Asides from that, there were also people acting rather unusual, not as their true selves. Haha. She's pretty sharp. :p
We had an amazing time of conversation before we slept. I even took the opportunity to thank her for all the nice pictures she sent to me. I felt I should really give back to her more in return. She is just so awesome!!!
If only I could really be there for her just now. ::Sigh:: Soon.. Soon.. :)
Friday, September 23, 2011
September 23, 2011
Feeling very much happy and excited about last night's conversation, we proceeded to just enjoy the conversation again. We kept reaffirming each other about how much we really love each other a lot, and that we would really be so excited to see each other the moment I am able to visit. :)
She had an amazing time at college today. They celebrated all the birthday celebrants for the month of September. The college's really homely and the bond between the staff, lecturers and students are really really close. Now that is what you call a great college to study at, unlike mine last mine... Boo.
CG tonight was simply awesome too. Her coursemate, Eric, together with Ezen, an ex-customer from her shop came! Too bad Evelyn couldn't make it, but really, the whole atmosphere in CG was superb! Ezen and Eric blended in really with the rest of the members, people were really attentive to the preaching of the word, fellowship was great and they even did a mini celebration for Elaine then! She was just so blessed. Aww :)
Later on she gave a quick update to me, and that she was practically tired throughout the whole day. We gave each other a good night's sleep ahead and also pray that she'll do well for her driving class tomorrow morning.
All the best, Elaine! :D
She had an amazing time at college today. They celebrated all the birthday celebrants for the month of September. The college's really homely and the bond between the staff, lecturers and students are really really close. Now that is what you call a great college to study at, unlike mine last mine... Boo.
CG tonight was simply awesome too. Her coursemate, Eric, together with Ezen, an ex-customer from her shop came! Too bad Evelyn couldn't make it, but really, the whole atmosphere in CG was superb! Ezen and Eric blended in really with the rest of the members, people were really attentive to the preaching of the word, fellowship was great and they even did a mini celebration for Elaine then! She was just so blessed. Aww :)
Later on she gave a quick update to me, and that she was practically tired throughout the whole day. We gave each other a good night's sleep ahead and also pray that she'll do well for her driving class tomorrow morning.
All the best, Elaine! :D
Thursday, September 22, 2011
September 22, 2011
Dear September 22, 2011. This marks a very historical moment for both of us. :)
Early morning, we woke up and chatted on Skype. Initially she was really not wanting to share anything.. probably it was due to stress.. but after a while she then explained that she wanted me to share more things with her.. she said she do not know much about me, as I seldom talk about my things to her. I cried when she said that, and I reflected upon how I really was with her all these time.
Not really sure whether it was an argument, but as we continue to progress in our conversation, she then finally revealed everything, how she was really disappointed with some people, how stressful she was with the responsibilities she has, and so much more. She also shared how she was coping with it, and I can't help but to comfort and encourage her even more then. We then started to feel so much better and I knew that my tears were really worth it :)
She came back needing to do her assignments. I accompanied her as much as I could online on MSN, just to be there for her whenever she needed me. Later on she requested to chat with each other through webcam on Skype.
It was truly a memorable night. We got so much closer than ever before. We shared our secrets even more and it was really really wonderful. Couldn't help but to appreciate, love and treasure her for everything she did. I promise Elaine.. that you would be my first, and my last. Love you always. Always and always. :)
Early morning, we woke up and chatted on Skype. Initially she was really not wanting to share anything.. probably it was due to stress.. but after a while she then explained that she wanted me to share more things with her.. she said she do not know much about me, as I seldom talk about my things to her. I cried when she said that, and I reflected upon how I really was with her all these time.
Not really sure whether it was an argument, but as we continue to progress in our conversation, she then finally revealed everything, how she was really disappointed with some people, how stressful she was with the responsibilities she has, and so much more. She also shared how she was coping with it, and I can't help but to comfort and encourage her even more then. We then started to feel so much better and I knew that my tears were really worth it :)
She came back needing to do her assignments. I accompanied her as much as I could online on MSN, just to be there for her whenever she needed me. Later on she requested to chat with each other through webcam on Skype.
It was truly a memorable night. We got so much closer than ever before. We shared our secrets even more and it was really really wonderful. Couldn't help but to appreciate, love and treasure her for everything she did. I promise Elaine.. that you would be my first, and my last. Love you always. Always and always. :)
September 21, 2011
Gave her a wake-up call this morning. We chatted for quite some time then, and I kept asking her whether I could help her in any kind of way. Nothing I could do really, as I can't write a report on her behalf, I can't do her drawing assignments, I can't help her organize her things and schedule for her CG. Man, why, oh why, could I not be there for her? :( So sad..
I tried all sort of way to cheer her up later on the day. I recorded a video for her and posted it on Facebook. She liked it, however it still didn't do much to help her with her stress. She got frustrated with her connection later that night. She was supposed to send pictures that she took for Onz Night, however Gmail kept rejecting her attachment. :/ Poor girl..
We didn't talk before we slept. Her Wi-Fi finally ceased to function and she mentioned she can't afford to talk as it will incur more costs on her phone bill. Only thing I could do was to pray for her. I promised to give her a wake up call again tomorrow, and hopefully through this rest, she will feel much better. Hmm.
I tried all sort of way to cheer her up later on the day. I recorded a video for her and posted it on Facebook. She liked it, however it still didn't do much to help her with her stress. She got frustrated with her connection later that night. She was supposed to send pictures that she took for Onz Night, however Gmail kept rejecting her attachment. :/ Poor girl..
We didn't talk before we slept. Her Wi-Fi finally ceased to function and she mentioned she can't afford to talk as it will incur more costs on her phone bill. Only thing I could do was to pray for her. I promised to give her a wake up call again tomorrow, and hopefully through this rest, she will feel much better. Hmm.
September 20, 2011
Today she woke up by herself. She was basically still so stressed up with all the things she had to do. I spoke a bit with her on Skype upon my request, however she was really not in the mood to talk. I'm really so much worried for her. Wish I could do something about it. :(
Later on at night, she practically was even more stressed out. She went to her neighbour's house for an Open House gathering. It was supposed to be just for a short while, however her parents kept dragging the time chit-chatting there. Words can't describe how hopeless she felt during that situation. She had so many things to do, yet to leave would mean to be very rude.
Upon returning home, she basically did not want to do anything at all. She immediately wanted to sleep.. and I requested again to speak to her which was only for a shortwhile. She vented out her frustration and all.. and even I too felt really hopeless not being able to do anything then.
Sigh. Elaine, wish I could just hug you then. Hope you will feel much better tomorrow.
Later on at night, she practically was even more stressed out. She went to her neighbour's house for an Open House gathering. It was supposed to be just for a short while, however her parents kept dragging the time chit-chatting there. Words can't describe how hopeless she felt during that situation. She had so many things to do, yet to leave would mean to be very rude.
Upon returning home, she basically did not want to do anything at all. She immediately wanted to sleep.. and I requested again to speak to her which was only for a shortwhile. She vented out her frustration and all.. and even I too felt really hopeless not being able to do anything then.
Sigh. Elaine, wish I could just hug you then. Hope you will feel much better tomorrow.
Monday, September 19, 2011
September 19, 2011
Today, she asked a very interesting question. Guess she was just concerned for the future. It is kinda cute to know about it, but at the same time, of course not taking it for granted.
Later on, another Facebook issue came up. Not wanting to go through the details, but at least we got it resolved now. Facebook, why you keep making changes now and then? There could a lot of buggy consequences that would happen. Urgh.
I can honestly say I was scared, and disappointed. It was also due to a mentally and emotionally draining day at work. Goes likewise with her at college too. Poor Elaine :( Her lecturer said her assignment had some flaws, at the same time another one of her course which requires her to use Adobe Illustrator is tough! The whole Adobe Illustrator thing is just plain.. technical @@ Really hope she could find someone to tutor her with it. She mentioned Sheyvin, and at the same time Dennis did state on his Facebook comment of how he is using it daily.
I am so sorry for being selfish, Elaine. :(
Later on, another Facebook issue came up. Not wanting to go through the details, but at least we got it resolved now. Facebook, why you keep making changes now and then? There could a lot of buggy consequences that would happen. Urgh.
I can honestly say I was scared, and disappointed. It was also due to a mentally and emotionally draining day at work. Goes likewise with her at college too. Poor Elaine :( Her lecturer said her assignment had some flaws, at the same time another one of her course which requires her to use Adobe Illustrator is tough! The whole Adobe Illustrator thing is just plain.. technical @@ Really hope she could find someone to tutor her with it. She mentioned Sheyvin, and at the same time Dennis did state on his Facebook comment of how he is using it daily.
I am so sorry for being selfish, Elaine. :(
Sunday, September 18, 2011
September 18, 2011
A wonderful Sunday morning. Today I just felt so lovey-dovey, just wanting to have her right beside me at the moment. Gave her a morning call today, as she had to go for her driving class pre-exams. She did okay for it, and will then need to prepare for the main exam which would be - of all of the days in this month- 28th September 2011, her very own birthday. Words cannot describe how baffled she is about it. Can't help but to be baffled together with her. Why her driving institute so bad :(
Right after work, I requested to talk with her and she agreed. The reason was because I just simply miss her so so so much. We chatted a while and she then had to proceed to do her assignment. I wished her all the best, and that later on, she showed me the results of her art.
IT WAS AMAZINGLY GOOD!!! She did this dot hatching thingy (I'm not really sure how people do it) and it did resemble the original picture a lot! Coolness! Can't stop giving her praises for it :) So happy that her gifts and talents + creativity has continually fed and expanded with the course she is doing now. Greater things are sure to come for her! :)
Right after work, I requested to talk with her and she agreed. The reason was because I just simply miss her so so so much. We chatted a while and she then had to proceed to do her assignment. I wished her all the best, and that later on, she showed me the results of her art.
IT WAS AMAZINGLY GOOD!!! She did this dot hatching thingy (I'm not really sure how people do it) and it did resemble the original picture a lot! Coolness! Can't stop giving her praises for it :) So happy that her gifts and talents + creativity has continually fed and expanded with the course she is doing now. Greater things are sure to come for her! :)
Saturday, September 17, 2011
September 17, 2011
Did not gave her a wake up call this morning as she needed to just enjoy her rest and sleep to the fullest. There wasn't much plan for her today, so at least she can focus on finishing her assignments and plan for the rest of the week.
She attended church today with one of her classmates, Eric, together with David, who used to be her ex. David... is really a special case.. just by checking his Facebook, sometimes you just doubt certain things about him. Oh well. God be the judge of that. Eric on the otherhand really really enjoyed himself a lot, despite the guest speaker preaching about a very deep and solid message to the congregation. He also blended in very well with the rest of the members and he even said he will continue to join CHCKL for their service! How awesome is that! :D
Elaine posted on Facebook, how much she love me for being such an amazing friend for her. I can't deny how happy I was when she posted that. Others began to comment on it as well. Aww. Later on at night, she purposedly broke the rule herself by calling me with sweet names. I called her back that. It was just plain sweet of a conversation for the both of us then. 40 minutes went by just like that and she then had to sleep already. Wished we could talk more.. but well, the girl's gotta sleep. We wished each other a sweet goodnight and I would be giving her a wake up call tomorrow as she would need to go for her driving lessons. Wishing her the best ahead of it! :)
She attended church today with one of her classmates, Eric, together with David, who used to be her ex. David... is really a special case.. just by checking his Facebook, sometimes you just doubt certain things about him. Oh well. God be the judge of that. Eric on the otherhand really really enjoyed himself a lot, despite the guest speaker preaching about a very deep and solid message to the congregation. He also blended in very well with the rest of the members and he even said he will continue to join CHCKL for their service! How awesome is that! :D
Elaine posted on Facebook, how much she love me for being such an amazing friend for her. I can't deny how happy I was when she posted that. Others began to comment on it as well. Aww. Later on at night, she purposedly broke the rule herself by calling me with sweet names. I called her back that. It was just plain sweet of a conversation for the both of us then. 40 minutes went by just like that and she then had to sleep already. Wished we could talk more.. but well, the girl's gotta sleep. We wished each other a sweet goodnight and I would be giving her a wake up call tomorrow as she would need to go for her driving lessons. Wishing her the best ahead of it! :)
Friday, September 16, 2011
September 16, 2011
Gave her a really early wake-up call today as she has her Driving Class today. It's a public holiday in Malaysia, in conjunction with the 1Malaysia theme. I woke up 25 mins later than what was asked, but it was still okay. We then talked for a short while and had a sweet short talk that really put up smiles to our faces. :)
Stephanie from choir is coming to visit Philippines too, and I'm really really excited as to what presents she would be bringing all the way from Malaysia to me. :D
We chatted mostly on Google Talk today. Early morning itself, I found out that her driving instructor scolded her badly, just because of the 'bukit' test. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. How could he scold her insensitively.
EVIL DRIVING INSTRUCTOR. I SHALL HUNT YOU THE NEXT TIME I COME BACK. RAWRRRRRRRRRRRR. >(
So continued on, I suggested a couple of things to combat my struggle and she agreed on it. I really admire how she's taking a lot of effort keeping things under the boundary of a healthy relationship. Gotta buck up Kevin! Yoooosh!! She then hanged out with Zoey later and they had a good time just sharing things together. Right after that she'll be attending S.M.K. Dubcube and serve as a photographer under the media team. However... err.. she accidentally shaved her left eyebrow a way bit too much. Yikes. I don't really know how bad it will affect the way she looks at herself.. but how I wish I can just 'transfer' my abundant eyebrow hair to her at this point.
I met Stephanie, and she handed me the gifts. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!! Especially the wallet Elaine bought... just what I needed, as I don't have a wallet at the moment. Love you Elaine!!! :D Thanks for the cute lion too. Hehe.
Upon returning.. she acted quite different on the phone... like as if she was reluctant, uninterested. I was so worried then. And then she revealed that she was thinking if suddenly she would to stop all this. I got even more worried and saddened. Even though she said it is just her imagination, but to me, it was as if I was experiencing it at that point itself. We had a small argument.. but really thank God manage to clear things up. I cried a bit when I finally got to hear her laugh. Sigh. Elaine... Hopefully tomorrow would be a much better day.
Stephanie from choir is coming to visit Philippines too, and I'm really really excited as to what presents she would be bringing all the way from Malaysia to me. :D
We chatted mostly on Google Talk today. Early morning itself, I found out that her driving instructor scolded her badly, just because of the 'bukit' test. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. How could he scold her insensitively.
EVIL DRIVING INSTRUCTOR. I SHALL HUNT YOU THE NEXT TIME I COME BACK. RAWRRRRRRRRRRRR. >(
So continued on, I suggested a couple of things to combat my struggle and she agreed on it. I really admire how she's taking a lot of effort keeping things under the boundary of a healthy relationship. Gotta buck up Kevin! Yoooosh!! She then hanged out with Zoey later and they had a good time just sharing things together. Right after that she'll be attending S.M.K. Dubcube and serve as a photographer under the media team. However... err.. she accidentally shaved her left eyebrow a way bit too much. Yikes. I don't really know how bad it will affect the way she looks at herself.. but how I wish I can just 'transfer' my abundant eyebrow hair to her at this point.
I met Stephanie, and she handed me the gifts. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!! Especially the wallet Elaine bought... just what I needed, as I don't have a wallet at the moment. Love you Elaine!!! :D Thanks for the cute lion too. Hehe.
Upon returning.. she acted quite different on the phone... like as if she was reluctant, uninterested. I was so worried then. And then she revealed that she was thinking if suddenly she would to stop all this. I got even more worried and saddened. Even though she said it is just her imagination, but to me, it was as if I was experiencing it at that point itself. We had a small argument.. but really thank God manage to clear things up. I cried a bit when I finally got to hear her laugh. Sigh. Elaine... Hopefully tomorrow would be a much better day.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
September 15, 2011
I continued sharing where I left off last night... however she wasn't really in the mood to listen because she was still feeling very tired. I felt quite terrible because I guess the things I share to her are just plain boring. Sigh. Got to buck up I guess? She did say that I'm not funny.. and I have to agree with that. Sigh. Self-esteem dropped. But it's okay, she assured to me that she chose me for the person I really am, and that I still do create good jokes from time to time. :)
She had a couple of assignments to do today. I wanted to help her so badly. She didn't want any help for it, but I told her that it is still my offday and that at least I can lessen her burden a bit because she actually chose to do a tough picture for her other assignment... and what made it tough was because it was a LION... and that basically represented me. ::touched::
How could I not fall in love with this girl? :))
We chatted while she did her assignments. I told her that I will always be there for her if she needed anything. :) I managed to assist her out with one of the assignments she did. Was so happy just to know that I could lessen her burden a bit, though it wasn't much at all. Wish I could do more though. Argh.
At night she excitedly shared a lot of things. Though nowadays she sets a time limit for us to talk, it really doesn't matter to me, as long as I can hear her voice talking, her laughs, her giggles... that is all that I wish for :)
She had a couple of assignments to do today. I wanted to help her so badly. She didn't want any help for it, but I told her that it is still my offday and that at least I can lessen her burden a bit because she actually chose to do a tough picture for her other assignment... and what made it tough was because it was a LION... and that basically represented me. ::touched::
How could I not fall in love with this girl? :))
We chatted while she did her assignments. I told her that I will always be there for her if she needed anything. :) I managed to assist her out with one of the assignments she did. Was so happy just to know that I could lessen her burden a bit, though it wasn't much at all. Wish I could do more though. Argh.
At night she excitedly shared a lot of things. Though nowadays she sets a time limit for us to talk, it really doesn't matter to me, as long as I can hear her voice talking, her laughs, her giggles... that is all that I wish for :)
September 14, 2011
Early morning, we actually talked for a while. Initially it was only for a short time, but we ended up talking for an hour! We continued on where we left last night and just had another great time of sharing. :)
However... something terrible happened later on after we ended the call. Ethan was supposed to fetch her to college.. but he wasn't picking up his phone. Elaine really felt sad, angry and hopeless. She didn't like to be late, and Ethan was supposed to fetch her to college by 8.30am, as her class starts at 9.00am. In the end, her mom had to fetch her to college instead. At least she was able to call the college to notify them regarding this. Phew.
Later at night, she asked me a VERY interesting question on Whatsapp. I answered her and assured her that I wouldn't be the type of person she described. We talked for a short time only, as she really felt tired and has been sleeping very late throughout the week. She then said that we can continue later on that morning. I didn't mind at all, because it is all for her own good. Giving her a sweet morning call tomorrow!
However... something terrible happened later on after we ended the call. Ethan was supposed to fetch her to college.. but he wasn't picking up his phone. Elaine really felt sad, angry and hopeless. She didn't like to be late, and Ethan was supposed to fetch her to college by 8.30am, as her class starts at 9.00am. In the end, her mom had to fetch her to college instead. At least she was able to call the college to notify them regarding this. Phew.
Later at night, she asked me a VERY interesting question on Whatsapp. I answered her and assured her that I wouldn't be the type of person she described. We talked for a short time only, as she really felt tired and has been sleeping very late throughout the week. She then said that we can continue later on that morning. I didn't mind at all, because it is all for her own good. Giving her a sweet morning call tomorrow!
September 13, 2011
Early morning, I gave her a morning call despite what had happened last night. Though she didn't mention it on Whatsapp, I just knew that I had to call her to wake her up. And yes, she woke up and thanked me for waking her up, and I apologized for what had happened last night.
Things really have been picking up well for her in college. Really happy for her regarding this. She's also able to fully utilize her DSLR camera as there is also a photography class included in her course. :)
Later on that night, we had a really great talk again. We talked and answered more questions about the topic we have been discussing lately. It is really good just to be so open and really understanding even more. We then gave each other a goodnight's wish ahead and will be looking forward for another following great day.
Things really have been picking up well for her in college. Really happy for her regarding this. She's also able to fully utilize her DSLR camera as there is also a photography class included in her course. :)
Later on that night, we had a really great talk again. We talked and answered more questions about the topic we have been discussing lately. It is really good just to be so open and really understanding even more. We then gave each other a goodnight's wish ahead and will be looking forward for another following great day.
Monday, September 12, 2011
September 12, 2011
It's the mooncake festival season back in Malaysia. Ah.. I kinda miss those mooncakes, especially the snowskin ones. I wonder whether Elaine loves mooncakes too.. hmm.
Anyways as for today, we weren't able to talk on the phone at night due to some problems that happened to my phone. It dropped and suddenly couldn't receive any network transmissions, and to make things worst, even the sound was not working. I was so sad as Elaine actually attempted to call me several times, yet I wasn't able to pick up her calls. My phone was finally working only about 15 minutes after last call, but when I tried to call her.. she was already sleeping.
Sigh. The limitations of technology. I just wish, hope and pray she'll have a good rest, relaxing sleep and an amazing day ahead for her tomorrow.
Anyways as for today, we weren't able to talk on the phone at night due to some problems that happened to my phone. It dropped and suddenly couldn't receive any network transmissions, and to make things worst, even the sound was not working. I was so sad as Elaine actually attempted to call me several times, yet I wasn't able to pick up her calls. My phone was finally working only about 15 minutes after last call, but when I tried to call her.. she was already sleeping.
Sigh. The limitations of technology. I just wish, hope and pray she'll have a good rest, relaxing sleep and an amazing day ahead for her tomorrow.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
September 11, 2011
Due to our very long conversation last night, I basically decided not to sleep anymore in fear that I might not be able to wake up, at the same time give her a wake up call as well. Throughout the day I kept feeling so bad for causing her to have little sleep only, knowing that she'll have a long day ahead tomorrow. Eeks.
Her ex-boyfriend, David, would be joining her CG soon. He attended service with them today and she's still very cautious to what he might do with them. Other than that, there would be some changes on her birthday celebration plans. Would not be able to go to the beach this year as most of her members would not be able to attend if it is going to be held at a farther place. Oh well, there is still next year :)
To add, she got blessed with a NEW CAMERA LENS. Didn't get the detail of it, but it looks really really AWESOME! God is really good to her and her family! Really happy for her :)
Later on, we talked about our topic that night. We got to know more things, and also asked situational cases regarding it. However if possible, we should limit on talking on this topic as per requested by Elaine herself. I am more than happy and willing to comply to her request. I'm just so in love with her more and more each day. ::blush:: :)
Going to give her a wake up call again. Wishing her a great night's sleep ahead!
Her ex-boyfriend, David, would be joining her CG soon. He attended service with them today and she's still very cautious to what he might do with them. Other than that, there would be some changes on her birthday celebration plans. Would not be able to go to the beach this year as most of her members would not be able to attend if it is going to be held at a farther place. Oh well, there is still next year :)
To add, she got blessed with a NEW CAMERA LENS. Didn't get the detail of it, but it looks really really AWESOME! God is really good to her and her family! Really happy for her :)
Later on, we talked about our topic that night. We got to know more things, and also asked situational cases regarding it. However if possible, we should limit on talking on this topic as per requested by Elaine herself. I am more than happy and willing to comply to her request. I'm just so in love with her more and more each day. ::blush:: :)
Going to give her a wake up call again. Wishing her a great night's sleep ahead!
Saturday, September 10, 2011
September 10, 2011
Call her early this morning because I checked on her Facebook message from Phei Wen that they have a meeting at 10.00am in the morning. However in the end, she wasn't able to go as she wanted to spend more time with her family at home. College life sure did take much of her time, not forgetting her other commitments in church, ministry and also with her friends.
Her birthday celebration plans are into progress right now. Teasingly reminding her to not check my Facebook messages :p She said I shouldn't be so worried as she did not want to spoil the surprise for her as well. Phei Wen's making such a big effort and sacrifice on her part to make sure everything goes as smoothly as possible. She just recovered from her sickness... and what more she needed to study for her upcoming exams which is about 17 days from now. Helping her as much as I can too. Elaine, you are really blessed with an amazing cell member. :)
Later that night she was so engrossed with watching Chuck. She really really LOVED watching that show and she told me how it sometimes relates to our current relationship at times. ::blush:: She watched 2 CD's at one go that entire night, which was about 8-10 episodes. I proceeded to go ahead and sleep first, but she then proceeded to ask whether I would like to talk to her for awhile. I was more than happy to accept, but at the same time concerned if she is pressured in doing so.. I so want to hug her so tight to show my appreciation towards her.
She talked about Chuck in the beginning, and I was so happy and glad to know she was really enjoying herself. Really love it when she's just so happy.. when she speaks with joy and laughter. After that we continued on our topic of conversation last night. It was really one very memorable night as many more secrets were unfold.. emotions, feelings.. all uncovered. It was also a night where I was just so open and was not shy anymore to talk and share and also to ask more personal questions at her. We kept talking and talking for hours, yet I did not even notice the time!!! And there she was, needing to wake up early the next morning, and then do her assignments. She knew the time yet, she allowed us to continue talking.
What a sacrifice!!!!
CAN I MARRY YOU RIGHT NOW ELAINE TAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ::screams::
Her birthday celebration plans are into progress right now. Teasingly reminding her to not check my Facebook messages :p She said I shouldn't be so worried as she did not want to spoil the surprise for her as well. Phei Wen's making such a big effort and sacrifice on her part to make sure everything goes as smoothly as possible. She just recovered from her sickness... and what more she needed to study for her upcoming exams which is about 17 days from now. Helping her as much as I can too. Elaine, you are really blessed with an amazing cell member. :)
Later that night she was so engrossed with watching Chuck. She really really LOVED watching that show and she told me how it sometimes relates to our current relationship at times. ::blush:: She watched 2 CD's at one go that entire night, which was about 8-10 episodes. I proceeded to go ahead and sleep first, but she then proceeded to ask whether I would like to talk to her for awhile. I was more than happy to accept, but at the same time concerned if she is pressured in doing so.. I so want to hug her so tight to show my appreciation towards her.
She talked about Chuck in the beginning, and I was so happy and glad to know she was really enjoying herself. Really love it when she's just so happy.. when she speaks with joy and laughter. After that we continued on our topic of conversation last night. It was really one very memorable night as many more secrets were unfold.. emotions, feelings.. all uncovered. It was also a night where I was just so open and was not shy anymore to talk and share and also to ask more personal questions at her. We kept talking and talking for hours, yet I did not even notice the time!!! And there she was, needing to wake up early the next morning, and then do her assignments. She knew the time yet, she allowed us to continue talking.
What a sacrifice!!!!
CAN I MARRY YOU RIGHT NOW ELAINE TAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ::screams::
September 9, 2011
I gave her a morning call today.. again, I just love to hear her voice in the morning. ::sighs:: God, can I just be there to kiss her on the forehead and greet her in the morning everyday? Rawrrrrrrrrrr...
Feeling lovey-dovey from the events yesterday.. we proceeded to talk and just enjoy listening to each other.. and we actually talked for more than 50 minutes! If only I didn't have work, and she didn't have college, we could have just keep on talking and talking and talking.. :) We shared more intimate and deeper things and I kept assuring her that she is absolutely stunningly gorgeously attractive. Simply because she is. Hehe. ::shy::
She'll be having CG today. Really wish her the best, and hope that she'll enjoy it a lot. She'll be doing a lot of the duty there because some of her members are not able to help. This is the point where I can step in to be her helper. :)
Later on upon returning.. we chatted on Facebook awhile and she asked whether I would love to talk. I LOVE it so much when she asks me that. :)) I'm already learning to not demand much from her because she indeed has so much things in hand to do.. but I'll definitely do my best to be there for her. :)
We chatted a LOT that night.. and we discover more things about each other.. and be more open about certain things as well. I was relatively shy because.. well she knows about that.. but I'm getting more comfortable about it and we both learn much regarding our topic of conversations.
Man, I love her so much :)
Feeling lovey-dovey from the events yesterday.. we proceeded to talk and just enjoy listening to each other.. and we actually talked for more than 50 minutes! If only I didn't have work, and she didn't have college, we could have just keep on talking and talking and talking.. :) We shared more intimate and deeper things and I kept assuring her that she is absolutely stunningly gorgeously attractive. Simply because she is. Hehe. ::shy::
She'll be having CG today. Really wish her the best, and hope that she'll enjoy it a lot. She'll be doing a lot of the duty there because some of her members are not able to help. This is the point where I can step in to be her helper. :)
Later on upon returning.. we chatted on Facebook awhile and she asked whether I would love to talk. I LOVE it so much when she asks me that. :)) I'm already learning to not demand much from her because she indeed has so much things in hand to do.. but I'll definitely do my best to be there for her. :)
We chatted a LOT that night.. and we discover more things about each other.. and be more open about certain things as well. I was relatively shy because.. well she knows about that.. but I'm getting more comfortable about it and we both learn much regarding our topic of conversations.
Man, I love her so much :)
Thursday, September 8, 2011
September 8, 2011
She's been enjoying playing The Sims nowadays. Totally addicted to it already :P
How we both wish we could just visit each other like that in real life.. how we can both just chit-chat, do things together, cuddle, smooch... and I shall not go any further than that. :p
She seems to be doing well in her college for now. It's only the 4th day, and all her coursemates have really gotten to know each other so well! What was even more surprising was that there was an ex-CHC Singapore member from Johor Bahru that is studying with her! Really an open door for her to bring more people to join the church. AWESOME. :D
We spoke quite late at night.. and I broke the taboo by telling her how much I love her. Hehe. We got so lovey-dovey, so it was really the 'moment' to say that 3 special words to her. :)
I'm cant describe how much happy I am.. for her and for both of us.
How we both wish we could just visit each other like that in real life.. how we can both just chit-chat, do things together, cuddle, smooch... and I shall not go any further than that. :p
She seems to be doing well in her college for now. It's only the 4th day, and all her coursemates have really gotten to know each other so well! What was even more surprising was that there was an ex-CHC Singapore member from Johor Bahru that is studying with her! Really an open door for her to bring more people to join the church. AWESOME. :D
We spoke quite late at night.. and I broke the taboo by telling her how much I love her. Hehe. We got so lovey-dovey, so it was really the 'moment' to say that 3 special words to her. :)
I'm cant describe how much happy I am.. for her and for both of us.
September 7, 2011
We had.. an awkward fight today..
We spoke after she came back from her college.. but she was quite tired then and wasn't really in the mood to talk much. It got me so worried, thinking that in her new season, our time for each other would also be less.. so I voiced out my thoughts and concern regarding. Boy, was she so sad and disappointed with me..
I cried.
I didn't mean to hurt you Elaine.. I know you are making a lot of sacrifices just for the both of us.. and I really hope that you accept my apologies regarding this.. I love you so much. If only I could hug you right now to show how sorry I am..
Thank God later on things were much better after I apologized and clarified what I really.. and to assure her that I really really appeciate the effort she is taking for us. We had a light chat about The Sims, and later on I also gave her my password so that she could play around with me character and accept the things she requests from me. :)
Thank you, Elaine. You are just so awesome. :')
We spoke after she came back from her college.. but she was quite tired then and wasn't really in the mood to talk much. It got me so worried, thinking that in her new season, our time for each other would also be less.. so I voiced out my thoughts and concern regarding. Boy, was she so sad and disappointed with me..
I cried.
I didn't mean to hurt you Elaine.. I know you are making a lot of sacrifices just for the both of us.. and I really hope that you accept my apologies regarding this.. I love you so much. If only I could hug you right now to show how sorry I am..
Thank God later on things were much better after I apologized and clarified what I really.. and to assure her that I really really appeciate the effort she is taking for us. We had a light chat about The Sims, and later on I also gave her my password so that she could play around with me character and accept the things she requests from me. :)
Thank you, Elaine. You are just so awesome. :')
September 6, 2011
It was her 2nd day at college today.
We didn't get to talk much, and later on that night we weren't able to chit-chat as well because I fell into a deep asleep while she came back quite late after CWPM and also the fellowship later on.
Coordinating her birthday celebration now with Phei Wen. It's gonna be a blast :)
We didn't get to talk much, and later on that night we weren't able to chit-chat as well because I fell into a deep asleep while she came back quite late after CWPM and also the fellowship later on.
Coordinating her birthday celebration now with Phei Wen. It's gonna be a blast :)
Monday, September 5, 2011
September 5, 2011
Today marks her first day at college. It was her Orientation week and Justin fetched her there. It was supposed to be from morning till 4.00pm, however it was cut short till 2.30pm. She wanted to go back and rest, however the lack of available transport hindered her from doing so. She then hanged out with Charissa at McD.. and soon later went to Sunway Pyramid to wait for Ian and Chia Huey to have dinner with her. However again, it was delayed till 7.45pm! Poor girl :( She's been out the whole day, with lack of accumalated sleep and now she's stranded there another couple of hours. Aww.
Nevertheless in the end, they managed to have dinner. She then, being so tired, came back home and immediately wanted to sleep early. Yet.. she sacrificed 30 minutes of her time just to talk with me. Thank you so much for your sacrifice Elaine. She then set a couple of boundaries (LOL) and it was pretty much the joke of the day for us. We exchange sweet things to each other before wishing each other a goodnight sleep ahead.
Thank you Elaine. You mean so much to me. :)
Nevertheless in the end, they managed to have dinner. She then, being so tired, came back home and immediately wanted to sleep early. Yet.. she sacrificed 30 minutes of her time just to talk with me. Thank you so much for your sacrifice Elaine. She then set a couple of boundaries (LOL) and it was pretty much the joke of the day for us. We exchange sweet things to each other before wishing each other a goodnight sleep ahead.
Thank you Elaine. You mean so much to me. :)
Sunday, September 4, 2011
September 4, 2011
She's back!!!!!!
Looking forward to hear her share all the magnificent things she experienced throughout her trip there.
I can't emphasize more how much I really miss her.
:)
Looking forward to hear her share all the magnificent things she experienced throughout her trip there.
I can't emphasize more how much I really miss her.
:)
Saturday, September 3, 2011
September 3, 2011
Not much news today from her.
We only updated each other late at night telling each other how much we both miss and love each other.
Hope she's having a time of her life there. I'm pretty sure she's giving her everything to learn and capture the spirit there and bring it back to her CG.
Wishing you all the best Elaine :)
We only updated each other late at night telling each other how much we both miss and love each other.
Hope she's having a time of her life there. I'm pretty sure she's giving her everything to learn and capture the spirit there and bring it back to her CG.
Wishing you all the best Elaine :)
Friday, September 2, 2011
September 2, 2011
I gave her a wake up call today, and she prepared to depart for her mission trip to Singapore. I'm so gonna miss her a lot as she would be there till this Sunday, and right after Sunday, she would then have to prepare to start her college years.
We only manage to Whatsapp each other later on that night. Was so happy to know how she was doing there. Though we did not chat much, but it did indicate how much we really miss each other.. Gosh. I just felt not worthy of her affection at times. But I do promise to always give her my best.. and to just always be there though not physically, but mentally, spiritually and emotionally :)
Prayed for her before I slept. Sincerely wishing her the best there.
God, I really could not ask for another woman in life...
Elaine, you truly are the perfect girl for me :)
We only manage to Whatsapp each other later on that night. Was so happy to know how she was doing there. Though we did not chat much, but it did indicate how much we really miss each other.. Gosh. I just felt not worthy of her affection at times. But I do promise to always give her my best.. and to just always be there though not physically, but mentally, spiritually and emotionally :)
Prayed for her before I slept. Sincerely wishing her the best there.
God, I really could not ask for another woman in life...
Elaine, you truly are the perfect girl for me :)
September 1, 2011
:)
Another day, a new month.
God knows how many times have I repeated this statement. Our love for each other has gotten so much closer and closer. To me.. it really feels great to have someone that you love so much.. love you back the same.
I woke her up early this morning so that she could get ready for her combined CG prayer meeting with W11 (Ian How). Right after that, she went out with her family to IKEA, and gosh.. the meatballs.. oh glorious IKEA meatballs! How I long after thee! ::drools:: I kept telling her how much I missed her. Hahaha. Such a 'manja' brat I was. :p
Later on at night when she got back.. a 'miracle' happened as her WI-FI... was finally working! She went ahead to prepare a few things and then we chatted on Skype for a short while, as we didn't want to risk the fact that later on, her WI-FI might not be working. Right after that she continued to pack her things for her trip to Singapore with Pastor, the Dubcube team and the worship team together to the Heart of God Church :)
We bid each other goodnight then and I continued to stay up a bit more to online and check Facebook and play some minigames on my phone. Just as I was about to sleep, she suddenly Whatsapp me to check whether I was still awake, which of course I was. She then said she wanted to talk more since her WI-FI was still operational. The days by which we weren't able to talk to each other on the phone really got us to miss each other so much! Hehe. We proceeded to talk then till of late. Gosh, did I felt a bit guilty to cause her to be awake, knowing that she had to wake up at 5.00am, and that was basically another 3 more hours for her. I promised to give her a wake up call.
I love her :)
Another day, a new month.
God knows how many times have I repeated this statement. Our love for each other has gotten so much closer and closer. To me.. it really feels great to have someone that you love so much.. love you back the same.
I woke her up early this morning so that she could get ready for her combined CG prayer meeting with W11 (Ian How). Right after that, she went out with her family to IKEA, and gosh.. the meatballs.. oh glorious IKEA meatballs! How I long after thee! ::drools:: I kept telling her how much I missed her. Hahaha. Such a 'manja' brat I was. :p
Later on at night when she got back.. a 'miracle' happened as her WI-FI... was finally working! She went ahead to prepare a few things and then we chatted on Skype for a short while, as we didn't want to risk the fact that later on, her WI-FI might not be working. Right after that she continued to pack her things for her trip to Singapore with Pastor, the Dubcube team and the worship team together to the Heart of God Church :)
We bid each other goodnight then and I continued to stay up a bit more to online and check Facebook and play some minigames on my phone. Just as I was about to sleep, she suddenly Whatsapp me to check whether I was still awake, which of course I was. She then said she wanted to talk more since her WI-FI was still operational. The days by which we weren't able to talk to each other on the phone really got us to miss each other so much! Hehe. We proceeded to talk then till of late. Gosh, did I felt a bit guilty to cause her to be awake, knowing that she had to wake up at 5.00am, and that was basically another 3 more hours for her. I promised to give her a wake up call.
I love her :)
Thursday, September 1, 2011
August 31, 2011
Merdeka! :)
We came to know that we both really love duck. :P Her mom is a total addict to it too. Hmm.
Luke 4:18-19, my life mandate. I invited her to join me to run this mandate together. It was triggered due to her conversation with her member.. that she began to think of her ex.. and she confessed how much she is still hurt over that fact. We pledged to be agents of healing and restoration to the people who are broken and in bondage out there. God, use us as only You can :)
Right after that, I composed a sweet and short confession for her on Whatsapp. Maybe I can try to write and compose a song out of this? That'll be awesome indeed. Mmm hmm.
So... her WI-FI was down (again). Must have been really troublesome not just for her but for the entire family as well. Ah well. Unexpectedly, it was raining heavily with thunderstorm at night. I quickly ran to buy load downstairs despite the heavy rain from my side too. Thank God somehow the line was so much better as previously it was near to impossible to even hear each other out. We had a short chit-chat but it was really worth it. ::smiles again::
We came to know that we both really love duck. :P Her mom is a total addict to it too. Hmm.
Luke 4:18-19, my life mandate. I invited her to join me to run this mandate together. It was triggered due to her conversation with her member.. that she began to think of her ex.. and she confessed how much she is still hurt over that fact. We pledged to be agents of healing and restoration to the people who are broken and in bondage out there. God, use us as only You can :)
Right after that, I composed a sweet and short confession for her on Whatsapp. Maybe I can try to write and compose a song out of this? That'll be awesome indeed. Mmm hmm.
So... her WI-FI was down (again). Must have been really troublesome not just for her but for the entire family as well. Ah well. Unexpectedly, it was raining heavily with thunderstorm at night. I quickly ran to buy load downstairs despite the heavy rain from my side too. Thank God somehow the line was so much better as previously it was near to impossible to even hear each other out. We had a short chit-chat but it was really worth it. ::smiles again::
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