December 31, 2011

It's the end of the year.. and I must say this year.. has been one of the most historical years of my life..

I would never have imagined getting attached to the most beautiful girl in the whole wide world.

Elaine Tan Shi En.

It is more than an honor, more than a blessing, more than an answered prayer, more than a dream came true that I may now call you my partner, my girlfriend, my whole life.


I thank God for this opportunity to be hers. I thank God for the accidental meeting that you have purposed so that we were able to get to know each other.

May 2012 be an amazing year for the both of us. May our relationship continue to blossom and that we will continue to cherish, love and treasure each other in a whole new level.


I LOVE YOU ELAINE.

Thank you for your love. Thank you for choosing me as your boyfriend. Thank you so much.

December 10, 2011

I guess.. we have been having too much fights lately... even during at 4.00am while we were on Skype..we actually had a fight again. Oh man. *shakes head* What is going on with me. Why do I demand so much from her? :( I'm so sorry dear.

I felt so bad.. just thinking about how Elaine must have felt. She loves me so much, yet I doubted her love for me. How? Why? Kevin, are you expecting too much from her?

Worst, later that night, she said she wished she could just disappear.. and that really saddened me even more because she felt that she was not good enough for me and that I deserved someone better.

No, Elaine.. I don't deserve anyone else in my life but you. Only you Elaine.. only you.

December 9, 2011

Phew. Today... it was much better, despite both of us having a small fight during the afternoon. I guess expectations for each other came into play... and because of that, Elaine got hurt. :( I'm sorry Elaine.. I'm sorry. Good thing later on we recovered as we continued to talk on Skype. I felt that I needed to hug her so tight in my arms.

That evening I went for my new team bonding session at a Japanese buffet restaurant called 'Yakimix'. I was mainly the photographer then, and boy did I really enjoyed taking lots and lots of photos.

The dinner took quite some time and the next thing I know, Elaine already had to sleep. I told her to sleep first, and would promise to wake her up later at 4.00am so that she can continue to do her assignments. We bid each other goodnight and would be looking forward to chat with her later. :)

December 8, 2011

I... woke up late. Again. Overslept. Urgh. What is wrong with me? :(
Today was really a bad day... not only me and Elaine got into an argument, but also I seemed to have hurt her with my words.

I'm so sorry Elaine.. I really didn't mean to.. I really really love you. I mean it.

December 7, 2011

Here I am writing.

To my dearest Elaine, whom I love and care so much.

I know I have caused you so much pain,

So much disappointments from time to time.

I am not perfect, not perfect as you thought I am,

I am but flawed, with a set of weaknesses and traits that are considered ugly.

Despite all that,

I vow to be the best person I can be in your life.

I vow to always care,

and love you,

just like how God loves you and me.




You are so special.

You are my answered prayer.

You are one of God's greatest gift to me.

And I cherish you.



10 more days.

10 more days till I finally get to see you.

:)

December 6, 2011

Gosh. I was supposed to wake her up this morning but.

I OVERSLEPT. Oh my gosh. WHY. Elaine was definitely gracious enough to have forgiven me but really I felt so bad. *Sigh*. I guess I should stop working out right after work. It seems to make me more tired these days..

December 5, 2011

I accompanied her all night long as she did her assignments. I think I must be getting really old as I can't seem to be able to stay awake all night anymore. Oh man. I'm an old man! Noooooooo *echoes* *screams in horror*.

Jokes asides, it really is a wonderful thing to be able to see her online. Her beauty, cuteness -- unmatched. Her voice - angelic. Her smiles - leaves me breathless. Her laughs - makes my whole world.

I love you so much Elaine. 12 more days!

December 4, 2011

Gosh. I woke up so late today! @_@ I guess I was overly tired from all the partying, not to mention travelling the whole day, as well as taking lots of pictures around too.

We both had a busy day ahead, what with me attending church and CG, and knowing that I would be leading the CG the following week. Phew! Excited! On her side, she has been busy arranging so many things for her CG too, what with the many birthday celebrants that her CG will be having, with Phei Wen's birthday coming first.

We chatted a lot that night, despite being tired. We just talked, shared and kept telling each other how much we appreciate, love and cherish each other being in our lives. It is true, I simply cannot deny that Elaine has completely turned my world upside-down. :) I can't wait to have her to be mine soon. Hehe.

December 3, 2011

Global Payments HSBC Christmas Party! ORA!! I've been waiting for this like forever! The chance for me to finally dress up nicely, to take lots of nice pictures, to finally experience how it is like to have a masquerade theme party and best of all --- good food! Hurray!

Come to think of it, both Elaine and I knew that today was supposed to be the day that I would come and visit Malaysia initially, but of course, there were some changes and that I would instead visit on the 17th. Nevertheless, I believe the wait is worth it, therefore here I was, at the party, taking lots of nice photos, dressing my best and .... certainly missing Elaine. How I wish dearly that she is with me now. Sigh.

Upon reaching home, she already fell asleep. Aww. Poor girl. Must have been such a tiring day for her, plus, with the lack of sleep the other night. Sleep well Elaine. Sweetest dreams ahead too. :)

December 2, 2011

I accompanied her last night for a while, however then she went to sleep and requested if I could wake her up. We talked about a lot of things, but mainly about what we would our plans be when I come and visit. Excited we are! 15 more days now! Woo Hoo!

I'm currently on my MC today as I have lower respiratory infection (again). I wonder why despite all the working out at the gym, I can still be sick. Oh man. I wanna be at my best health when I come and visit. On a side note, I'll need to prepare to get the necessary things for my company's Christmas party tomorrow. Phew! It's time to use my Canon 60D, which I have named Helena. :) I'll take a lot of photos for Elaine to see, and of course, my 'handsome' photos for her to drool about. :p

December 1, 2011

December has arrived! The last month of the year. How time really passes by so quickly. To think that here I am now, in love with such an amazing girl, working in such a great company, attending a good church here (but still can't beat the awesomeness of City Harvest Church of course).

17 more days. Wow. To finally meet the girl of my dreams. I'm excited. SO EXCITED!

To think that we have both not seen each other for close to 14 months... wow. I wonder what both of us would do when we finally see each other in person... :p

November 30, 2011

Finally, November is going to end! But sadly... I woke up feeling unwell. I felt feverish, not to mention having a bad sore throat, and occasional dry coughs. I was shocked this morning when the phlegm that I coughed up had blood in it. @@ Oh my gosh! I could have chosen to not attend to work today, instead I insisted to go, thinking with Panadol, I should be fine. Reason is that today is a public holiday in the Philippines, which means I would be getting 270% more for this day.

For the love of money... oh man. But I need every peso I can obtain in hopes of blessing Elaine with a new DSLR. I'm really hoping the tax refund that I would obtain by the end of December would be a favorable amount. God please bless me more so that I can be a great blessing to Elaine!

Today was a very blissful and joyful day to some couple... WenDee + Daniel and Felicia + James ----- they are finally getting married! So happy for both of them, especially WenDee. :) I wonder when would me and Elaine's turn be? Hehe.

November 29, 2011

Oh man.... how could I overslept... I was supposed to wake her up early this morning so that she could do her assignments early. Oh man....!!!

Feeling guilty and without having any response from her..  I went to work heavyhearted. However by then she already has forgiven me! Aww? Elaine, I love you :)

To think that November is already nearing.. that would mean it would be close to 18 days now before I would be able to finally see her. I can't wait to finally pop the question to her.. hehe. It's a secret of course. ;)

November 28, 2011

Today, Elaine got her interest for Salsa Dancing burning again. Salsa dancing.. the thought of her holding hands, dancing with another man within such a close proximity, with the guy's hand on her hips... AUGHHHH! It is making me so jealous!!! *screams*

Anyways, who am I to stop her passion. Dancing has always been something that she is interested in and given any chance to dance, she would definitely would say yes. She can really groove, plus she even got the attitude to dance. ;)

We talked a lot on Skype later that night. I even got to see her on video again and I really can't resist looking at such a beauty. Did I mention before that she looked like an angel sent from above? Hehe.

I love her. I really really do.

November 27, 2011

Waking up feeling totally horrible from the fight last night. I wasn't able to sleep well at all... in fact I stayed up nearly all night just thinking about it. I am so so so sorry Elaine.. I kept telling her that throughout the day.

Later on she also did her part by forgiving me.. but I know that this was not enough. I assured her how much I have always loved her and that it was never my intention to cause her so much hurt and pain. The fact of that alone makes me cry. No kidding. She is just too precious in my life.

I thank God that later that night, we were able to settle that differences. We chatted on Skype filled with love for each other and I was so happy that we could finally sleep well.

I love you Elaine. Always have, always will. :')

November 26, 2011

Weekends! Finally! This is the day that we both are able to afford to sleep late and wake up late as well! But the funny thing was Elaine woke up pretty early today and immediately called me to Skype. Gosh, not only did I sound like a zombie, but I also talked like one. Ugh.

God knows how addicted in love I am with her. She's so precious to me, and I really can't wait to finally see her face to face. Sadly that night when we were Skyping we got into a fight... Sigh. I knew she was really hurting so bad from it and I felt so bad.. so guilty from it. Maybe at times I should just keep my mouth shut. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

November 25, 2011

Today is special. Why? Because Helena (my Canon EOS 60D) has finally became my possession. Woo hoo! I'm so excited!!!!! Months of waiting, saving up money, whilst learning a lot about photography has finally come into fruition! Hallelujah!

However on Elaine's side...

She was deeply sad and affected today over a certain someone whom she is associated with. The way the person talked to her and treated her... gosh.. totally terrible. I wanted to personally scold that person, however she stopped me from doing so.

I totally know how it feels like, when you care so much for a person, yet they do not see it, and think otherwise about you. I could only concur that as human beings, the degree of our grace for a person isn't as much as how God's grace is, but I know for sure that despite this letdown, that is where His grace would come to fill us instead.

Stay strong Elaine. As for me, I promise to be your pillar of strength at times when you are down.

November 24, 2011

I couldn't believe it when she said she actually didn't like Egg Tarts. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? Nooooooooooooooooooo. Egg tarts are soooooooo heavenly! :p

Asides that, she doesnt like eating Siew Pao. Neither do I. I remember clearly when I was very young (8 years old) that I puked after eating the Siew Pao that my dad bought for me. Got scolded and... er... well even until now, given the chance I still won't eat it.

On a side note, my supervisor blessed me with my favourite Starbucks -- Green Tea Frappucino! Hehe. And tomorrow would be the day that I would obtain the Canon EOS 60D that I have been wanting to get! Woo Hoo! I wonder what I should name her...

November 23, 2011

Waking up and smelling BACON. How blissed she is that her dad nowadays prepares breakfast for her. Ever since then she no longer has gastric in the morning, which of course is good news for both of us.

She inquired about the changes of my leave, however I was still not able give her a clear answer regarding this request to my supervisor. It just shows how much spending Christmas with me means to her. :)

Later that day she gave me a couple of classic songs (really classic ones!) to listen. She even wanted them to be played on her wedding day. AWW. Hehe. Can't wait for that day to come in years to come. :")

November 22. 2011

Today I woke up at 2.00pm. Urgh @@. This is the first time in MONTHS that I have the luxury to sleep until this late! Good thing I was on leave. *phew*

Elaine sent me some of the photos she took at Melaka. It was really beautiful, despite of the rain that disrupted some of her time there. Overall I think she really has the eye to capture nice photos, something that I also would want to have as I would be entering the world of photography.

She slept early tonight. She really needs it as she didn't sleep at all last night and went through a whole day without resting. A superwoman indeed. I like. Hehe. :)

November 21, 2011

Today after college, she informed that she was elected to be the President!!! OMIGOSH SO AWESOMEZ!!!!! SO PROUD OF HER!!! WOW!!!! Elaine Tan, a natural born-leader with magnetic personality and amazing charisma. People really do look up to her and can see that she has the sight to lead people wherever she goes.

Elaine. :)

Later that night, I accompanied for as she had to do an all-nighter for her assignment. Good thing I have my vacation leave the following day. While on Skype we chatted a bit, and also had a slight argument but were quick to patch things up again. >.< Sorry dear...

I got knocked off completely after the following day. Dreamland, oh how I long thee.... zzz.

November 20, 2011

Last night, before she slept, I told her a bedtime story. However.. she wasn't able to listen the whole story completely as she fell asleep. Well that's what bedtime stories are for anyway. HAHA. I prayed for her, asking God to continually to provide her strength and also the means of finance as she had to spend quite a sum over certain things in college as well as for giving her building fund pledge.

Brian Pang went to fetch her this morning to church together with Gracella. It was really cool and touching to know how excited Elaine shared about me and her to both of them, and that Gracella kept telling her how an amazing person I am.

Later after church she went to Melaka to do the photoshoot for her photography assignment. It was really amazing to know how much effort she is putting for her assignment. Imagine, she could have just go around Kuala Lumpur to do the photoshoot but she chose Melaka of all places. Plus, she had to rent the camera as she finds herself very much comfortable with it.

Upon returning home, we chatted on Skype and came to find that Careen and Boon Hock were already engaged! Wow. Careen is so much younger than me and she is already going to get married. Amazing. I wonder when would Elaine and I get married? Hmm. :)

 

November 19, 2011

Today she had a special request for me. It was to help her fight with her temptations.

I would be the person that would stand up for her. To build, encourage, edify, set an example of, to pick her up when she falls, to prevent her from even falling.

I admit I myself am not perfect, and that by no means am I also able to fight my own temptations as well.

But for you Elaine, I will. I will be that man for you. I choose to be, and by all means would I do everything to grant your request.

I love you Elaine.

November 18, 2011

Cuddle.


to hold close for warmth or comfort or in affection
to lie close or snug
to fondle in the arms
to hug tenderly
to nestle
to snuggle


Though I have long forgotten how it feels like to be cuddled (when I was a baby/child does not count), basically this word sums up how we both felt like doing to each other.

I wonder and long to experience how it feels like to do so. Hopefully soon.. soon. :)

November 17, 2011

Today was pretty much relaxed for me, but as for Elaine, she could only come back late at night as she has assignments at college + skit for the Christmas production taking place.

Well the good thing was at least she has no classes the following day. We chatted on Skype and talked about several people and were our opinions with them and also relating our experiences dealing with the many various and unique people we have encountered in life.

To me, the best I have encountered is Elaine. Hehe. :)

November 16, 2011

Today we both woke up late despite reminding each other to wake up early. Oh mannnnnnnnnn. Blunder blunder! I think the effects of working out at gym right after work does take some toll on my body. But then again, that is not an excuse as I did promise Elaine to give her a morning call. So sorry Elaine!!!!

We kept reminding each other of Zoey's birthday which falls at 12.00am (17th November), while Skyping that night. Zoey sure is a great friend, not just to me, but also to Elaine. Can't believe how much I likened Elaine to Zoey last time when I was still pursuing Zoey *coughs*. I even told Dennis that Elaine was like Zoey Jr.! Haha.

Well, I'm just glad that in the end, I ended up with a truly remarkable and amazing person such as Elaine. I think this could be one of the best gifts God has given to me in this life that I have on Earth. :")

November 15, 2011

We talked yesterday about the change of my date to come and visit Malaysia. We actually had an argument over it too.. and boy.. was I so guilty about it. Sigh. The past few days have been really horrible for the both of us, not to mention for her especially. She just wanted the best for both of us and I.. well.. I guess I was just thinking about all the hassles for it. I already informed my supervisor to tell the upper management to bring my approved leave days to a much later date and... we shall see whether it would be approved or not.

Christmas has always been a special day for her... and I guess she wants to spend it with me. I get it now... as the past Christmas' for her have always been... sad and disappointing. As I write this post, tears are flowing.. because I can feel how Elaine has felt.. and how STRONG she is keeping her chin up despite the pain and hurt she have went through..

We'll see how it goes. As for now... I love you Elaine.

November 14, 2011

I would not like to talk about the events that happened today because it was totally disappointing.

But for you Elaine..

If God creates miracle for a person, I pray that God creates me to be a miracle for you.
Let me be your miracle Elaine. When everyone fails you, I would be the one who does not.

November 13, 2011

We 'temporarily' call each other sweet names for now. Though I am a bit saddened by it, but the fact is we are not an official couple yet, plus Elaine meant for it to be something really special. If we call each other by sweet names now, what would happen later if we are a couple? We made a Skype'd pinky swear to not call each other then till the day I finally pop the question to her.

Later that night, we had a slight argument over a big misunderstanding.. Sigh. I didn't mean it and to see her cry... it was really really heartbreaking for me. Such a jerk I was and all she wanted to do was to surprise me. *shakes head* Though in the end later, we apologized to each other but I guess the damage was already done. Especially at this season now where she is stressed up, I should be her pillar of strength, not the other way around.

Sorry Elaine...

November 12, 2011

Today is the day she will be showcasing her skit! She looked really gorgeous with her white shirt + skirt. Beautiful beyond measure. Ahhh.. ::drools::. *obscene* Haha!

She really is creative, from arts, to singing, to dancing, to drawing, to designing, to making handmade crafts/gifts, to fashion especially --- she absolutely an AMAZING girl! I can't describe how proud I am with all her achievements so far, not to mention how much effort she has put to make sure everything she lays her hands on would be a great success.

Elaine, you've captured my heart like no other girls have had. :)

November 11, 2011

11.11.11

A beautiful date, to start a beautiful day. :)

I called her up at work today to see how she was doing. Never in a day that would pass by that I would not think about her. She is always on my mind, constantly worrying, wondering, imagining - what, why, when, where, how - has she been doing at college.

Truly one of a kind, precious, beyond any comparisons, unique, beautiful -inside and outside- she is.


Elaine Tan Shi En.

November 10, 2011

Though not having enough sleep, I still felt quite refreshed accompanying Elaine last night. Today would be the day that I would be signing the new contract with my company which gives me an additional increase in my pay, including an performance incentive package. But of course, that would mean more added responsibilities, therefore we shall see how it goes in the long term.

Elaine was really sad to have to rent a DSLR for her assignments. How I wish I was there now with her preferred DSLR and just lending it to her. Sigh. But despite that she always remained strong, which is really one of her most admirable traits. Love her so much for that, hence I shall also do my best to be her pillar of strength whenever she is lacking of it. :)

Later that night, she came back home a bit late as she had to practice for her skit. It would be coming soon, therefore she has been putting so much effort into it with all the late night practices. Amazing girl, a Superwoman indeed. We chatted just a bit on Skype and wished each other goodnight.

Have a good rest Elaine. :)

November 9, 2011

Today is the day I am following up on my passport application right after the 15 working days clearing period. Oush!! I woke the dear Princess up and proceeded to go to the DFA. Overall it went well, except that my photo was badly taken. Awh man. :( Nevertheless the process will take another 10 working days so the tentative date given was on the 23rd November. Oh well, better than having anymore unnecessary delays.

Elaine returned home quite late again at night, and right after she had to go for another round of all-nighter assignments. Of course I am more than excited to accompany her again, despite the fact that I am such an 'old man' already. >.<

On Skype I showed her something that really got her excited :D I finally got to do so and boy, her reaction was really so cute and filled with enjoyment. Hehe.


Elaine oh Elaine, please be mine forever. :)

November 8, 2011

YIKES! I completely got knocked off while accompanying her! LOL. I must admit I'm really amaze with her strength and endurance going through an all-nighter, and then head to college, and then after college practice with her skit/prepare for CG/going out with her family. Omigosh.

Elaine, you are a SUPERWOMAN!!!!!!

It makes me look like an old man now. Boo. Why can't I stay up all night without breaking any sweat anymore. :( Nooooooooo.*screams*


Anyways, she commented about how she likes to be accepted with the way she looks, regardless whether it be with make up own, or if she uses a hairband. To me, everything about her is just beautiful. Simply beautiful.

To me, Elaine, you are the most beautiful person in the world. Inside, outside -- yes, you truly are. :)

November 7, 2011

Monday Blues. Sigh. Sigh. How I wish Monday's were actually a holiday and that every week there would be only 4 working days and 3 off days. Ah well.

Anyways, my progress with the gym is pretty good. I noticed that my tummy is starting to be less flabby, especially the love handles area. I'm monitoring my weight every weekend and so I'm hoping to be able to lose at least 2 pounds every week. Very achievable results, I must say. :)

On the other hand, I woke our dear Princess up just before I head back to work. She wanted to chat a weeee-bit more and even though I risk being late, I happily just chatted with her on Skype for a quick 5 minutes. Indeed it was a MAGICAL 5 minutes. Hehe *wink*.

I called her a bit that night. And guess what? She called me "Hubby". AWWWWWWWW. I immediately blushed and was lost for words! Cheeky Elaine!! Eeeeeee! *pinch*

Later on, I accompanied her as she had to do her assignments. It was an all-nighter but nevertheless it was just a great joy being there for her while she gives her all with the assignments given. I admit I fell asleep a couple of times but I was quick to respond whenever she called out my name. Hehe.

I really really love you Elaine. :)

November 6, 2011

She was out the whole day practicing her BGR skit that would be scheduled this coming mid-week November. Right after that, she went out to watch a movie with her family.

Upon returning, we chatted on video Skype and it was just so nice to see her in person. She really is a very beautiful girl. Ahh... everytime I gaze my eyes upon her, my heart can't stop beating so fast to see such beauty, even though not in person. Oh, and her Wi-Fi was okay then. Hehe.

November 5, 2011

I was very relieved today as she was actually went for the CF Sleepover at CHCKL. I was really worried when she was not replying my Whatsapp messages, as well as my calls. *Phew*. She apologized later then but it was all good. To me, as long as she is safe, it is all that matters. She came back home tired and I bid her good rest.

Upon waking up later at night, she told me not to ever leave her, and certainly of course, I promised her that. I would never ever leave you, my dearest Elaine. She even asked me, when was the first time we said the magical words to each other. August 6, 2011 it was. :)

Her Wi-Fi was down later that night. Even so, we still manage to share a lot of sweet things together and I was really touched by the very long, touching message she sent. I replied back and we then wished each other goodnight, imagining that we were actually cuddling at night. :")

November 4, 2011

Today after college, she didn't reply me at all on Whatsapp even though earlier today we chatted a bit on Google Talk.. I did try to call her too, but there was no response.


I'm worried.

November 3, 2011

Made a blunder this morning again...  awh man. I really need to check my phone!

Basically Elaine did not go to school today. But still, she was spending most of the time at home finishing some of her assignments. Upon returning home, I accompanied her on Skype while she does her work... however...


Kevin made a very very big mistake that caused Elaine to feel hurt. Owh man.... I'm so sorry Elaine....


Eventually we managed to get things cleared up.. tried to cheer her up though I was really feeling so terrible then. Haih. Kevin oh Kevin.

Anyways we continued on while I was there accompanying here throughout the whole late night. Even though I could honestly say I was really sleepy, but I didn't mind at all. She is way more precious than anything else that I have in this world.

My only wish for her now is that she would have enough strength and energy to last throughout the day. Be strong and stay strong girl!

November 2, 2011

I wasn't able to hear my alarm this morning and.... urgh... So sorry Elaine. >.<

On a brighter note, after going back from gym and weighing myself...


I LOSE 1KG ALREADY!!!!!!! WOO HOO!!!! Elaine was really happy as well :D


Then again, I was quite shocked to hear that she was still in college till about 11.00pm! Apparently everyone at one of her course were supposed to stay to finish up one of the projects/assignments given. Scary @@. She came back home tired... yet we still manage to talk on Skype for a while. Wouldn't it be nice if I could just give her a well-deserved massage now. Awh well...

November 1, 2011

It's already November!

1 more month till I finally get to see Elaine.. I really really can't wait! ::excited::

I can't imagine what we would be doing when we finally see each other.. to think that I finally get to see the person that I love the most in this world.. ah... ::daydreams::


*shakes head* Okay, back to reality.

Anyways I accompanied Elaine the whole night while she did her assignments. Though it was also tiring from my side, but I totally did not mind at all. Looking at how hardworking she is, putting in so much effort just for that one assignment she is doing (the biodata) really impresses me so much! If I were her lecturer, I'd really give her full mark, not just for creativity but especially for EFFORT.


Elaine, you truly are such an amazing person. :)

October 31, 2011

We woke up continuingly talking about the events of yesterday. Looking at all those photos and videos posted, I'm pretty amazed! It must have been a really enjoyable party! And to get to see Elaine dancing again --- priceless :) She danced really well and I get to see how much she actually is enjoying herself with it. All the practice made for the dance truly had bore much fruit, not to mention she actually got an invitation to join the Dance Ministry too! So cool! But she knows her priority and looking at how strenuous and stretching the demands of her college is, she declined the offer.

I believe she really has what it takes to be a good dancer. It is just the matter of putting in more time and effort to sharpen and refine her movements. She already has the passion and the attitude (just look at how she dances!) for it. One day perhaps Elaine. One day, if there is an open door for it, go for it. :)

October 30, 2011

Today as I woke her up, she mentioned that she won't be going for the choir practice after all. Was very relieved about it as we both know she needed a lot of rest, as even today, she would be out the whole day preparing for the Halloween party.

Later after church, she had to practice for the drama for the BGR series that Pastor Kevin would be preaching this coming November. She mentioned she chose Ethan to be her 'boyfriend' and really can't imagine if it would be another guy. Very funny statement, and yes, to be honest, I am JEALOUS. xD

Right after the drama practice, she then had to prepare for the Halloween party. She showed some of her pictures of her dressing as a witch, and boy, she must have been the MOST PRETTIEST, SEXIEST, MOST RAVISHING-LOOKING WITCH I HAVE EVER SEEN!!!!!!!!!

ELAINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I bet all the guys must be trying to 'pikat' her throughout the night. *jealousy starts to kick in* :p

After the Halloween party, we manage to chat awhile on Skype before we headed to dreamland. I kept complimenting how she looked like as a witch, which she blushingly accepted. Hehe. Tomorrow would be another long week ahead. Hoping and praying for the best things ahead of us!

October 29, 2011

Today she would be going for her dance practice. Ethan woke up very late again, so we manage to chat a bit longer on Whatsapp. Even in the car, we shared a lot of sweet things together and Elaine continually kept making me blush. She's just so amazing. :)

She went to get a couple of things for her Halloween party. She showed a sneak peak of a picture on Facebook to what she'll be dressing as tomorrow. Long, sharp nails. @@ COOL.

To my surprise, her practice went on until late at night! The Halloween party is tomorrow after all, so I guess that is why they had to keep practicing and practicing and practicing. We chatted on Skype a while and she then had to sleep already as she also would be going for choir tomorrow morning. Was kinda worried if she can actually make it as she has been lacking of sleep for the whole week, not to mention having back to back dance practices.

Elaine, take good care of yourself ya. Hope you will be fully rested even though it will only be but a few hours of rest again. Miss you so much!

October 28, 2011

Gave her a morning call this morning. We chatted a bit, and she then had to go for college. I sent her a couple of videos to make her happy. :) Hope she liked it.

After college, she then had to go for her dance practice. Amidst the break, we manage to chat a bit on Whatsapp. She even sent me a photo of her during the practice. She looks really great :)

She came back tired. How I wish I could give her a massage or treat her on a spa. One day, one day... hehe. We then chatted a while on Skype and then wished each other goodnight.


Love you so much, Elaine. :)

October 27, 2011

Woke up today and was thankful that my Wi-Fi was working again. Elaine had already woke up then, even though she only had a few hours of sleep. Gosh. It truly is a stretching season for her. Today I was on my vacation leave, so I was hoping to be of much help for her again, as I don't have much to do at home alone anyways.

We continued just chatting on Whatsapp throughout the day. We talked about Baddogz photography, which I commented has very good photos taken (though some of it are actually obscene). Later after dinner, she went for a photoshoot as her assignment together along with some of her coursemates. She took a very nice slow shutter speed photo with my name written on it. So touched. Aww. :")

Upon reaching home... her Wi-Fi is back and alive!!!! So happy :D We chatted on Skype that night as if we haven't chatted for weeks. I accompanied her again with her assignments. She was really thankful for it, and I of course did not mind at all. :) She decided to sleep a bit early as she didn't have the necessary material to finish up what she was doing, and hence we then wished each other goodnight.

Sleep well, dearest Elaine. :")

October 26, 2011

Beginning of the day, we talked about weight. As we both know, I'm currently going to the gym again after not being regularly going there for the past two months due to stress, work, sicknesses and... laziness. Urgh. But starting now I've committed myself to go there again and have aimed to at least lose 1kg in a week.

Asides from going to college and all, she also is preparing for the upcoming Halloween party, as well as dance practices for the flash mob. Very cool to know that she has been given the chance to dance, which, of course what she loves doing. :) Couldn't be much more happier for her.

She stayed up the whole night again for her assignments. I tried to help her as much as I could, as well as to accompany her too. Though there was no Wi-Fi, I could still occasionally Whatsapp her to see how she was doing. Sadly though.. my internet connection suddenly went down, and I could have no means at all to communicate with her. She actually tried to check up on me whether I was still there. Sigh. Internet connection, why did you fail me this time.

Sorry Elaine.. nevertheless I'm praying for you. Stay strong ya.

October 25, 2011

Another wonderful morning to wake up at. Even more beautiful when you know the person who loves you so much is awaiting for you to wake her up and then just talk and share sweet nothings. Though it was on Whatsapp this time as her Wi-Fi is still down, nevertheless it was a special moment once again. :)

She wasn't feeling well today, not to mention having migraine as well. I could only pray and hope that she'll recover soon.. We didn't talk that night, but at least we still Whatsapp each other to check how we're both doing. Stay strong Elaine! Get well soon too. :)

October 24, 2011

I gave her a nice wake up call that morning. I can't stop telling her how much I love her and that I love to call her early in the morning to hear her beautiful voice. :) We had a great time together, although short. Still it was really amazing what we did. Awh.. Elaine. You are just so BEAUTIFUL. :")

Later that night, I manage to talk to Ethan, Richard, Eric, Phei Wen and Elaine. They were all in Ethan's car, whom of which he was fetching all of them back. It sure was a good time just hearing their voices and joking around with them. I also informed them that I would be seeing them soon, and not to mention, calling Elaine a 'lioness'. :")

Sadly, that night, her Wi-Fi was DOWN. We were both really looking forward to Skype and share about the things that has happened on our day but... oh well. I still manage to call her though, and though it was short, but every single second and minute was preciously worth. Gotta keep her in my prayers. She's being stretched this season.

October 23, 2011

Today.

Today was awesome. Words cannot describe how much we have gotten much closer now. I think our love for each other has reached a point where we could never replace each other with anyone else.

I accompanied her again that night for an all-nighter as she continued on with one of the assignments given by her lecturer. Kinda think the lecturers in her college are giving the students way too much work to do in a short period of time, not to mention there is no semester break for them to recuperate. Awh man.

An amazing thing happened while we were on Skype that night. We got bonded and well, the rest is.. just magical.


Elaine Tan Shi En,


I LOVE YOU. :")

October 22, 2011

She went out early today to go for a photoshoot session at KL Bird Park! So cool right? In the end she manage to take some pretty awesome pictures, and boy was I so proud of her. :) She was using a Canon EOS 550D with an 18-135mm lens. Hmm. Though not the best lens, but the pictures taken were really nice! Should I really go for 60D, or just settle down with a 550D/600D. Hmm. *ponders

Anyways, today we didn't talk much on the phone as she was tired. Despite that, every minute and every moment means a lot. So excited to see her soon.. hmm hmm :)

October 21, 2011 (Special)

"Always  have, always will."

And that is the gist of my love for you Elaine. :)

Strong words to say, but to really mean it? I do Elaine. If you could really see my heart and know how big my love is for you, you could probably think it is close to, if not, infinite itself. :)

We have a great time that night on the phone via Skype. You had a very fruitful yet tiring day ahead, what with attending classes as well as leading your CG. Such beauty, strength and determination, I adore much.
I could only be a pillar of strength, a beacon of light for you. I wish and oh how much I really wish I could do much more, but please bear all of it for now Elaine.

Soon dear, soon. :)

October 20, 2011

It was a day for me to get ready and prepare for all the necessary documents for my passport appointment. I first had to go to the police report to get their authorized report, as well as the notary public office, to get a law firm stamp approval stating that I have indeed testified that my passport was lost.

Despite all that, all I could think in my mind was Elaine. I'm always so worried for her.. checking whether she has enough sleep or not... whether she is doing well with the assignments given by lecturers to her... not to mention her responsibilities in CG and ministry. Such a strong girl. Really admire her a lot. Hehe. :)

We didn't talk much when she got back at home as she was really exhausted from the events of today, as well as yesterday. To me, all that matters is for her to have a good sleep and rest. Whether it would be just 10, or perhaps even less, 5 minutes on the phone, I'm totally okay with it. Just being there to listen to what she has to say is good enough.

Love you lots Elaine. :)

October 19, 2011

We woke up and apologized to each other about what happened last night. Really love her so much.


She shared this movie about the modern day Beauty and the Beast. Kinda interesting, but in the end, Tangled is more of OUR movie. :p


She had to do lots of assignments and I volunteered to accompany her throughout the entire night on Skype. It really was a wonderful experience just being there for her all the way, though I did offend her with a slip of my tongue about something. Eeks. Sorry dear. >.< Promise won't say it again...

Anyways we did manage to pull out an all-nighter. Her painting sure was gorgeous and creatively colored and done. Very proud of her skills and talents :) It was a good thing that I was still on MC so at least I would be able to spend the rest of the day compensating for the lack of sleep. I'm more worried for her as she is the one who has to continue to attend class and even after that, continue on with more assignments..

God, continually to give her more strength. She needs it. Let me be there for her as well.

October 18, 2011

Her Wi-Fi is alive again! ::celebrates::

However.. later that night, we had a very big misunderstanding on who was going to call each other that night. :( In the end we both got disappointed at each other and just slept without giving a proper goodbye.

So sorry Elaine... I was just so excited to be able to talk with you again, and I believe you felt the same way too..

October 17, 2011

Just as we already wished each other goodnight.. suddenly Elaine rang my phone and wanted to talk to me again. Good thing I had enough phone credit to just be there to comfort her and assure her that I'm there for her no matter what.

It's amazing how our relationship has been going so far.. despite all the ups and downs, yet we always come back stronger and loving each other more than before. How I wish she could be mine right now. *smiles

Early that morning, I gave her a nice wake up call. I could only hope and pray for her that she'll have the strength, wisdom and favor to cope with the new busyness she is currently adapting at the moment. I'll try my best to be there to support her no matter what it takes.

That night, we managed to talk and discuss some of the assignments that she was given. Was so happy I could be there to help her find some materials that are related to it. She had to pull-up an all-nighter, and the next thing you know, she accidentally fell asleep. Aww. Times like this I really wish I could be in her room, carrying her to her bed and tucking her into her blanket, giving her a goodnight kiss on her forehead. :)

October 16, 2011

She fell asleep last night while we were talking. I was quiet worried to what actually happened to her last night as to why she suddenly didn't respond to my Whatsapp. Good to know that she was okay, just that she was so tired she didn't even realize that she actually fell asleep! So cute :p

She did ask me a couple of interesting questions about herself. Elaine, if you are reading this ---- I love you exactly for who are you :) I'm proud with every achievements that you have accomplished and I couldn't be much happier knowing that things have taking a turn for a better in your life compared to how it was last time. I wonder what are the things that you are proud of with me. Hehe. *curious

Later on. she mentioned about her having some stomach pain (not the one that you have to go to the toilet) since yesterday. Now I am REALLY worried to why she is experiencing such pain. Could it be gastric? Oh man.. and what is more saddening is that.. she is no longer hosting HTV Live on the week where Jayeslee would be coming to perform. SO SAD. SO DEVASTATINGLY SAD. :((((((((( WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. WHYYYYYY DID THEYYYYY. HOW COULD THEYYYYYYYYYYY? Poor Elaine and Phei Wen.... words really cannot describe how sad they were. I tried to comfort Phei Wen as well on Facebook.. I'm hoping they both would recover from the disappointment soon.. Elaine's bringing her for a meal together tomorrow. I also informed Phei Wen that I would be treating her when I come back too. This incident particularly hit Elaine very hard. God.. why did You allow this to happen to her? She already had a rough month so far and this had to come as well. God, please heal her heart... and in anyway, restore back that joy and whatever has been lost to her in manyfolds. Please Papa?

She felt much better during the night. Her dad managed to bring her around to get all the necessary materials for one of her assignments/project. So happy for her :) She really wanted those things badly, but was unable to obtain them due to someone's procrastination. *coughs* Anyways we then had a good time Whatsapping each other before we went to sleep. It was kind of late, but I'm really happy to how things have recovered between the both of us, and despite not being able to chat on Skype for the entire month so far, we are still going on strong and that our love for each other have become much deeper.

Thank You Papa. We both continue to uphold our relationship into Your mighty hands. :')

October 15, 2011

This morning, we shared our sweet moments together again. She then requested for me take some photos of myself as it has been awhile since she last saw me. But I'm camera shy! >.< Managed to take some but eventually the best thing would be for me to see her in person itself. :p

Nothing much happened during the day. Oh, I really loved the way she looked and dressed up before she went to church. Vivaciously stunning! God, thank you for making her so beautiful. She truly is a beauty.. not just on the outside but also on the inside. :")

We spoke on the phone later that night. We discussed about certain things, but mainly about what are my plans now. Come back work for church? Bible School? 3 years? We're basing the answer from what Pastor could advice. Hmm.. I wonder what really lies ahead in my life.. as well as hers. God, do open tangible doors and lead the way to what you already have planned for us.

October 14, 2011

She couldn't attend college today as she wasn't feeling well at all. :( Poor Elaine... she must have worn herself out from all the things that has happened so far. Sigh. Can you transfer her sickness to me God? Let me be the one who will carry this sickness through instead of her. She still has so much things to handle... Please God, heal her. Make her body strong again.. supply her with supernatural strength that comes from You so that she may be able to go through this rough and dry season. Use it as only you can to be there for her in any circumstances possible too. I love her so much Lord. Her pain is my pain, her tears are my tears. *kneels down and pray*

Come CG time.. hehe. The surprise came into play. She said she teared from how her CG + Ethan's did the appreciation time with her. I wonder what were the sincere and heartfelt words they all shared to her that made her teared. Hehe. Nicole said she actually cried and was seen wiping those tears. Hmm. HEHEHEHE. Mission Accomplished! Phew. Now on to my next surprise for her.. I wonder what I should do next? *ponders

October 13, 2011

We spoke a lot on the phone today. Though her Wi-Fi was still down, it didn't matter to me how long, or how many times I would call her just to talk her and hear how she was doing so far.

Somehow as time passes by, we got to settle those differences slowly, but surely. In the end no matter, my love for her is never changing.

Just before I head to work, she 'hugged' me from behind. That feeling was so indescribable! It was like I totally felt she was really hugging me! Wow! That totally made my day. I cannot deny how touched I was when she did that. :")

I brewed up a plan to sweetly surprise with her CG members and Ethan's CG (they'll be combining CG tomorrow). The plan was after CG, they will all take a short heart to heart moment to express their gratitude and appreciation towards Elaine, especially at this season where she is really stretched to the maximum. Ethan confirmed with me that it is possible, so yeah, will be looking forward to hear her 'cry'. Hehe.

We spoke again on the phone at night. She told me she was not feeling very well. Was quite worried that she might fell sick. Wanna hug her so tightly and tell her that everything is going to be okay. Oh man. After that we continued sharing sweet things together on Whatsapp.

How I love you so much Elaine. How I dearly love you so. :')

October 12, 2011

We were recovering from the events of yesterday.

We did manage to clear a few things up last night...

It was the first time Elaine really got so mad at me..

We both apologized for what had happened. However on my side, I felt that the pain was still so strong there. I tried my best to be happy and strong for her, but I guess that did not happen after all. I still cried whenever I think of what happened yesterday. Who would have thought my heart would be this fragile. Maybe I really am in love with this girl. As they say, the deeper the love, the bigger the hurt.

She had so many assignments to do, including all her other responsibilities. To add the salt in her wounds, this argument had to happen. Felt so bad I couldn't do much to help her. Sigh. Why do I felt so powerless. So hopeless.

God, please help her. Help her in any ways possible. From my side I could only cheer her from afar, but I know that You can help her more than what she can even imagine. *tears*

October 11, 2011

Today.

Today we had a very terrible argument.

Maybe we both were expecting so much. Maybe we both were so sad, disappointed, angry towards each other.

Maybe.. there simply was just a big misunderstanding that we have to clear up.


We cried. We cried so much.



I'm so sorry my dearest love...

God, help us.. this is not what we both want.. it hurts so much..

October 10, 2011

Woke up today and we both shared really sweet things to each other. I was telling her how lucky I was that there is an angel who actually loves me back the way I love her, and she mentioned something that she told me before... that whoever would be my girlfriend would be the happiest person ever, and though we are not officially one (yet), she said she indeed has been happy till now. Aww. :) I promised her that I would continue to make her happy. That's a fact.

She had a long day at college and right after that, she would need to prepare the skit with Ethan and some of her other CG members. I on the other hand was preparing my set of skit to them as well. It was the story about Ethan (yes, Ethan) and Jasmine (his imaginary girlfriend).

Later on that night, I told her that I actually have read all of her old blogs. There was this particular one that she poured out all of her thoughts, emotions and feeling towards Vincent last time. I teared reading it because it was really.. really.. painful. Her love for him was so true.. yet he treated her so badly. And because of that, she still has some fear of certain things when it comes to relationship. Vincent. How could you. Sigh.

Apart from that I also extracted all the emails we both had sent to each other from when our friendship first started. If the thief didn't steal my phone and passport in the first place, I wouldn't have lost all the precious emails that was sent to all of my dear friends. Urgh. Oh well. Everything happens for a reason. We wished more sweet things to each other and went to slumber. Zzz...

October 9, 2011

I woke up still feeling fuzzy and have a slight headache. At least it wasn't that as it was last night. Really thankful for a good night's rest as well as God's healing hands. Truly the power of a simple prayer, knowing that when you pray, believe with all your heart that you will receive it and God will grant it :)

Also, thank God for the creation of Paracetamol a.k.a Panadol back in Malaysia. It helps a lot in terms of relieving that headache. Phew. Anyways enough about myself. Back to the blog. :p

Elaine had a very good sleep last night too. Today was her chance to recuperate from her hectic week. Sunday. Truly the best rest day ever. :) I wonder how would it be like if either one of us got fever next time and that how would we both take care of each other. Hehe.

Later that night after dinner, we manage to talk for 30 minutes. It was really really wonderful to be able to hear her voice for that entire period of time. She talked about a lot of things.. but we both knew there more than we could actually share or talk more. She also mentioned that...


SHE WILL BE HOSTING HTV LIVE ON THE DATE THAT JAYESLEE WOULD BE PERFORMING IN CHURCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So happy for her!!!!!!! :D SO SO HAPPY!!!! WAHH HTV!!!! FINALLY!!!!! WHAT MORE WITH PHEI WEN, HER OTHER HALF!!! (I'm Elaine's future REAL other half.. so at the moment I'll just be jealous)

What more, her CG was picked to do a short skit for Pastor Kevin's upcoming BGR series sermon this coming mid-November. Interestingness! I was more than willing to contribute some ideas and scripts as to see what and how the whole skit would be like. Oh and I found out that Elaine loves quotes too! Going to try to find some nice quotes to share with her later. :)

Just to share one very nice quote to close this post ;

"It is not that beauty endears, it is love that makes us see beauty."
-Leo Nicolaevich Tolstoy 

October 8, 2011

It's the weekends!

However I can't rejoice knowing that Elaine is still undergoing such pain. I'll always remember what she said last night.. "When I don't want to be hugged, just keep hugging me tightly. Don't let go." Hopefully when the time comes when such an event happens.. I'll keep her in my arms until she is finally okay. :)

Today is the day she would be going for the photoshoot by Vincent together with Phei Wen. Adele and Kevin Tan (?) tagged along as well. I'm pretty sure they would be able to take lots of awesome pictures of both of them. Elaine wore her very elegant, angel-like dress, which of course makes her look like an angel. <3

I'm in love. (again hahaha)

After the photoshoot, she stayed on in church for choir practice. Little did she know that I actually coordinated with Phei Wen, Ethan and Dennis to help me surprise her by getting her favourite Starbucks drink - Green Tea Frappucino, which coincidentally is my favourite Starbucks drink too. ;) Boy, was she so happy when the plan succeeded smoothly! Thumbs up for well-planned coordination. Hoho.

At night, she told me she has been holding back her tears from the stress and sadness that she is coping. What else could I ever offer but my comfort words.. sigh. Why, why oh why I can't even be there for the girl that I love? Sigh.

Oh and if you're reading this Elaine, I'm actually having fever all of a sudden. No idea how I suddenly contracted it but you told me to go and sleep first because you would only be back very late. Yet I insisted to wait and stand by just to make sure everything will be okay for you, despite me blowing lots of hot air from my chest and an occasional shiver. Fever go away.. I need to be there for Elaine.. give me a few more hours t stay on till she finally sleeps.

October 7, 2011

Woke up today and tried to help her with one of her assignment because she was quite packed with a lot of them. Sayang her so much that I was kinda desperate to help her with whatever I can. The title was about the biodata of herself. The format was actually a mind map, but due to the poor reception, I heard it was an essay. Big difference, I know. @@. So.. no thanks to the confusion, I was practically slowing her down and that is bad. Yikes. Sorry Elaine!

In college today, she received a very cool present from one of her classmates, Izak (based on her Facebook name). It was red-colored bunny shaped bag with a bowtie on its tummy. Kinda reminds me of one of the bunnies in Totoro, a Japanese anime with cute and weird looking creatures. So nice to have such classmates that even when you only know them for a short while, they already started treating you as if you were friends for a very long time. Definitely a friend worth keeping :)

Later on, she went for Roller Skating with her CG. Really funky and cool what they get to do for their outing. Too bad I couldn't join them. Awwh. Seems like Elaine could actually skate eh. Man, I regret not spending more time on the Ice-Skating rink back at Sunway Pyramid last time. Boo.

She came back pretty much tired already, plus Wi-Fi was still down. Tomorrow would be her photoshoot with Phei Wen! Finally :) So happy for her taht she won the competition from Vincent's Photography contest. But before that, she mentioned on Whatsapp how stressful and in pain she was in her heart... I was really really worried and sad that I couldn't be there when she's going through such a rough time. :'( Elaine.. stay strong.. I'll think of something to cheer you up tomorrow..

October 6, 2011

Today marks the day that I will start work at 12.00pm-9.00pm. A very interesting schedule, nonetheless good enough for me to arrange certain things for myself, as well as for Elaine. :)

It was quite sad to have her Wi-Fi still being down today. We both have so much to share and to tell each other! Plus, her voice. Oh how I need to hear her voice! Elaine, can you be mine, like, NOW? ::screams::

Anyways, I gave her a morning call through my regular load. Really hate the reception of the line as we both could barely hear each other, but that disappointment was compensated with our continued sweet conversation last night. Truly a great way to kickstart the day, knowing that there is someone out there, loving you with all her heart. Hehe.

Today she didn't have classes the whole day, instead it was a workshop instead. Not really sure how the whole workshop was like, but I get to see her drawing this adorable looking 'thingy' called "Dweey". Pretty cool on how the anyone is free to paint it as anyhow they like as deemed by the individual themselves. Wonder how her's looks like. Hmm.

Later at night she had Bible Study with Phei Wen. Basing on how it was, I'm guessing they were able to bond and share out each other's side of story even more. I think it's really nice for Elaine to get to talk into Phei Wen's life more. This girl has so much potential in her. People might even mistaken them as real life siblings in fact. Haha. Truly a wonderful friendship they have. :)


On a side note, R.I.P. Steve Jobs :(

October 5, 2011

The fact that we weren't able to talk on Wi-Fi last night and this morning made us miss each other so soooooo much! Man, I miss her voice.. her cute, sweet, angelic voice. We did share a lot of sweet things on Whatsapp though.. but still, it can't beat the feeling of really having a conversation with her. It was my off day today, so I was pretty much bummed up on what I can do to fill up my day.

She had to go for driving class retake this morning. It was quite delayed though as there were actually about 180 students also taking the exams. In the end she waited so long and finally at 12.00pm she finally got the chance to retake the test. This time she succeeded, so praise God! :)

Just right after college, she mentioned that there was a person harassing her through her phone. Not sure how he got her number... but really, this kind of matter should be reported to the police! RAWRRRRRRR WHO IS THAT @#@*#@_(#*@(*_#(@_ GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! >(
*coughs*

Anyways, later at night after she has just got back from her Bible Study exam with Chia Huey, she said that she wanted to sleep immediately as it was really a tiring day for her. But before she slept, we continued Whatsapp-ing a lot of sweet things together. It was really.. magical, an undescribable feeling, to know the girl that you love so much deep down in the bottom of my heart, feeling the same way that I do to her, wanting to just be there and kiss and hug each other tightly. Oh, how I wish you were mine now Elaine... oh how I love you so so so much! We then bid each other goodnight, tucked in the most sweetest of memories. :)

October 4, 2011

Today I volunteered to give her a morning call as early as 5.30am. Sadly however.... I woke up 40 minutes late! Oh no.. She was the one instead who had to wake me up. Felt really guilty and bad to have disappointed her. She had to do a lot of assignments that morning and she emphasized a lot on how much she needed to wake up early then. So sorry Elaine. :( *sigh*

Yet, despite that, she forgave me and still wished me all the best at work. Aww man. How could I not love her even more!! You are the BEST Elaine! *blows a million kisses*

After work (and after college for her), she told me about a secret she shared with me in the past. She revealed the whole story about it. She apologized for not telling the whole truth about it because she was scared I would really be disappointed.

Elaine, no matter had happened, I still love you the same. My love for you will never change. I love you more than just a romance, BGR kind of love.. I love you with the same kind of love that God gives to us. Agape love, my dear. Agape. :)

We couldn't Skype that night because her Wi-Fi was down. Ah well. It's okay. She must have been too tired to talk at night anyways. Prayed for her and wished her a goodnight's sleep ahead. :)

October 3, 2011

Today she woke up informing she wasn't able to do her assignment (about a map) using Adobe Illustrator. She was really scared that her lecturer might do something bad to her as not only she wasn't able to really understand how to use the program, but also since she was always late for his class (no thanks to Justin for fetching Elaine late all the time. Grrr.). I was so worried to that I really prayed hard for her lecturer's favor upon her. Thank God He provided two awesome classmates, Eric and Shadow to help her with it. Phew. I wasn't even able to concentrate on work that time.

She spent most of her time at night doing her assignments. Felt really bad that I couldn't help her at all. Awhh :( She then informed me about a website called lexusmodeling.com and that she needs help to collect points with it. I was really delighted that I could finally do something for her :)

I confessed a couple of things to her and she was happy with how open I was regarding those things. I guess it really helps to build our trust for each other more. I feel happy just to know how our relationship is going, despite having its own set of ups and downs.

I love you, Elaine :)

October 2, 2011

Today was a much better day. I felt more refreshed and calm after a rollercoaster of emotion ride yesterday. The preaching by Pst. Phil Pringle was really really good. It was really worth the rush. I guess my agitated nature yesterday really affected Elaine a lot. But I thank God, all that was cleared up as I properly apologize and show my appreciation towards her this morning.

I also took the chance to go back home so that I can chat with her through Wi-Fi. I told her how much I realize I really can't live without her. She is just too precious to me. She smiled and was happy with the words I have said. I really mean Elaine. I really really mean it.

Later at night, she went out with her family, including her grandparents to celebrate her birthday at Shabu-Shabu. That place really brings back great memories as I remembered last year we celebrated her birthday there together with the gang. I'll make sure we'll go there again Elaine. :) Let's order a lot of pork stripes! Yeah!

When she got back, she informed me that starting this month onwards, her schedule and time would be more hectic than usual. We really won't get to talk much anymore.. but nevertheless my love for her will never waver, but instead will get stronger. We talked a short while on Skype before we slept. Elaine, please wait for me. I'm going to make you the happiest girl alive. :')

Special Edition

Dear Diary,

I wanna just say how much I appreciate Kevin's hard work and his effort and everything he has done for me this whole year whether it's big or small. Infact not just this year...from the start of our relationship..and as bro and sis..

Even before we fell in love with each another, Kevin never failed to to call me almost every night before I go to sleep. Even the slightest thing like because I was afraid of thunders, Kevin would still be there to comfort me.

He is the only person that truly understand and listens to me and not judge me for the wrongs that I have done. He is the only and one and only one who never got tired of calling me, JUST to hear me cry every night because of my heartbreaks.

Yesterday I thought to myself maybe I shouldn't disturb him. I was abit moody myself and decided to sulk by myself that night. But when I was about to sleep, I felt that something was missing. YOU. Kevin...you were missing..and I was afraid at night cos it was late and my room was too quiet..in the end i couldn't resist but to call him so I could talk to him. Although I still felt upset over what happened, I felt happy and peaceful just by hearing his voice. I can't live without him. I realised I really really can't live without him. I would feel..alone..and part of me is missing..and that I love him so so so much.

Kevin, I love you.
I'm so sorry for merajuking alot. I don't know how you can bear it, stand it, and have so much patience with a girl like me, but I really am touched with all you did. Especially for my birthday. Please don't say you blew it or you failed. You have no idea how much you made my birthday happier this year. Without you, it would have been worse.. of course without my cg members and church members too >.<

Kevin, I truly love you. I cannot wait to be yours.

October 1, 2011

It's already the month of October. Phew. Time sure does past by quickly. Looking back at the older posts, it is as if those were already old memories. Thank God for this blog, that I am able to record down the events that has happened for reminiscing sakes. :)

Initially she was to wake up early as to prepare for her driving lessons on the slopes, which in the end, she did really well. Proud of her for that. However upon waking up early to give her a morning call, she said it wasn't necessary anymore as the driving lesson time was pushed to a much later hour. So here I was wanting to talk to her badly, but she on the other hand was really tired and wanted to sleep. Of course I respected her decision and hoped later at night we are able to talk more.

Later around the afternoon, I got really emotional as my half day leave was rejected. I vented out my frustration towards Elaine, and in the process a misunderstanding took place. Sigh. Who would have thought it would have affected her even till late at night, when we finally spoke on Skype.

I am really disappointed with myself. Elaine if you are reading this, do know that I did not, by any chance took your encouragement lightly. It really meant a lot to me. Not many people that I know am really able to comfort me when I am down. And yet, over one remark that I attempted to make a light joke about, you took it as a sarcasm. I am really sorry Elaine. My heart cries out even more for the fact that it hurt you and made you sad. Please forgive me. I could offer my tears to you...

September 30, 2011

We didn't talk much today. But despite that we still reaffirm our love for each other the same.

She went for her photography class today. It was really cool to look at all the photos that were taken. I can't wait to get my hands on a DSLR too. Canon EOS 550D or 600D? Argh. 600D I shall save up for. RAWR!

She then went for CG, whilst I was to join my company's Voice Team outing at a karaoke/pub. It wasn't really fun because the place was too small and the same people always kept singing and singing. Boring. Boo.

Upon reaching home, we only chatted a short while as she was really tired. She had to wake up very early tomorrow, so we wished each other goodnight. Sigh. I want to talk to her more. :(

September 29, 2011

Woke up this morning.. didn't know why I demanded so much from her. She must have been so disappointed.. I'm so sorry Elaine. :(

I profusedly apologize and after a while she was okay about it. She then mentioned how she miss the old times where people talk sweet things to each other when they are courting, such as those romantic novels or movies. The sweet little things.. simple yet able to melt someone's heart. It keeps the love going and that I certainly agree much. It's not just about having sex in marriage, but also to fill each other's love bank everyday with those sweet things, whether it be words, gifts or through actions. :)

Later on at night.. her surprised was spoiled by someone so close to her. She did something she has been doing every year to Elaine, which was rather insensitive. It was then my turn to comfort her. I manage to pull out a few story-based joke and I was happy to know that she felt much better with it.

Just before we Skyped, I got offended by one of her friends whom think I was not worthy enough for Elaine. It really got into my nerves a while, but I kept my cool and said a very strong 3 word on Facebook. "Hmm." Good thing he got the signal. Didn't really bother much of him anymore after that. Am I really not that good to Elaine in the eyes of the people back there? :/

September 28, 2011

:))))

It is officially Elaine very most special day. Sadly I don't know why her driving exams would be on today, so I took the chance to pray for her and assured her that everything will be going on well. In the end she managed to pass the driving test, however for the test on the slope.. she failed. Aww :( Poor Elaine :( I knew how badly she wanted to pass for this test.. and know she has to retake, at the same time have to fork out extra $$$. Sigh. Why are driving tests so... unfair. :( First they treat their students harshly, always scolding them, intimidating them, making rude and unpolite gestures towards them. Just because they are the instructor, doesn't mean they can do that to the students. Aren't the students the ones paying them in the first place?! GRRRR. I WANT TO BITE. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

But hey, a small miracle happened. The accessories that I have bought from Ashley since last April has finally arrived at Elaine's place! And you know what is best? It came right when she arrived back at home! :D I hope she liked them... I personally chose the key and the heart.. which signifies 'the key to your heart'. Cool right? She then posted it on Facebook and showed everyone it. Happy, I am. Most importantly, happy, she is. :)

Later on at night.. it was supposed to be the final surprise for her. I would sing a song and post the video for her to personally see.. however.. SIGH. The uploading process always failed! I was so focus on showing that video to Elaine.. but Elaine wanted me to talk to her instead just before her birthday day ended. I only managed to quickly post a birthday wish, and belated wish to compensate for the recording but... boy.. was she so disappointed. I tried my best to console her.. however the disappointment was just too great. I then cried too, and I really cried bitterly because of what a big letdown I was to her. When everyone else has failed her, and her hope was me alone, yet even I let her down. I felt hopeless, miserable, terrible, unworthy to be forgiven, utterly totally disappointed towards myself and so much more. I had prepare everything to work out well.. but who would have thought the last surprise did not work out, instead it led to a big mess.


Elaine.. I'm just so sorry. So sorry to have ruin your most important day of the year. T.T

September 27, 2011

Today was rather interesting @@. Promised to give her a wake up call, however I woke up with my electricity down, with the strong wind blowing causing my windows to flip around. I managed to give her a short call, however the line suddenly got cut, which caused me to resort to my GPRS to Whatsapp message her. So to cut the story short, I had to rush to work quickly. Was really worried for her...

We manage to check up on each other throughout the day. I was really glad she was alright and all. Thought she might be angry or sad that I had ignored her because of what had happened early this morning. I got permission from my supervisor to call her for a few minutes. Really love my supervisor a lot. Funny yet so sporting and caring to his fellow subordinates :) I then called Elaine up, chatted with her on the phone for a short while. I really like it when people shows their concern over me. In fact, I'm even happier to know that there is someone out there who is waiting for me.. hehe.

She didn't know I had actually planned to surprise her today. I coordinated things with Jonathan to get me two stalks of rose, one white and one red - which signifies my love for her, and to show the purity of my love for her too. Really, big credits goes to Jonathan. He managed to give the roses to her and boy was she so happy :) She then posted on Facebook and.. the rest is history. It was more like a public announcement that we were a couple, but still, unofficial because I would need to ask the permission of her parents. I can't wait! :D A bit scary but hey, I have faith man. RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. A lion's boldness and courage is something that no one can mess with. Hehe.

Later on she went for the Mid-Week Service at church. She was already so exhausted and tired. Aww. Poor Elaine. After that she had a long fellowship too.. and right at 12.00am sharp, I called her up to wish her Happy Birthday :)

Happy 18th Birthday Elaine Tan Shi En :)

The love of my life. The most precious of all. My love for you is more than what you can imagine. :')

September 26, 2011

We had a good chat again this morning. Kept reaffirming our love for each other. Her voice is so beautiful.. so mesmerizing. Wish I could just listen to her all day long. :)

Throughout the day, we chatted on Google Talk. Asides from checking how each other were doing, we also spoke about setting more boundaries between ourselves. Felt really bad for crossing out of line at times, but she assured her that it is okay, and that we will both work together towards making this whole relationship work for the better :)

Later on at night, I got the chance to do her a great favor with her assignments. It really feels good when you are able to lend a hand to the person you care and love so much, especially when they are really stressed and bogged down with a lot of work and responsibilities. I LOVE the Bee Cover Design that she did! It looked really cute and it gives you that kind of happy, joyful mood :)

We 'indirectly' spoke on Skype before we ended the day. Though it was short, I still do feel happy to be there for her despite being tired myself. I didn't mind at all in fact. She is just too precious in my life. :')

September 25, 2011

One day has passed after her most anticipated birthday celebration. Was so happy when to see the pictures of her celebration. It was really really grand! The food, the fellowship... ah.. wishing so badly to be there. I heard that one of her wishes was for me to come back to Malaysia faster. Hehe. I can't wait to fulfill that wish for her! :D

She spent most of her day finishing up her work and assignments. The course she is taking sure is really suited well for her. It is like as if God already prepared her for this course! You rock, Father God!

Later on we Skyped. Just so wonderful to see her in person. She is so gorgeously beautiful that I can't even afford to take away from eyes off of her. We had a good chat later that night. How I wish the night would never end. :)

September 24, 2011

Today is a special day!!! We are going to celebrate Elaine's birthday!! One whole month's preparation, and finally it all comes to this :)

I acted the whole day as if it was just going to be a normal day. Hehe. Later on that night after service, she was finally surprised and brought to Saujana, the place where Ian rented to have a BBQ Birthday Party! :) I couldn't get the details of how her birthday was celebrated, but I do know that one of her birthday wishes was for me to come back fast.

AWW. ::melts::

After the whole party, I asked if she felt surprised with the whole thing, but she said the events on the day itself got her quite suspicious. Haha. Imagine, a lot of people were asking whether she was coming for service that day, and so on. Asides from that, there were also people acting rather unusual, not as their true selves. Haha. She's pretty sharp. :p

We had an amazing time of conversation before we slept. I even took the opportunity to thank her for all the nice pictures she sent to me. I felt I should really give back to her more in return. She is just so awesome!!!

If only I could really be there for her just now. ::Sigh:: Soon.. Soon.. :)

September 23, 2011

Feeling very much happy and excited about last night's conversation, we proceeded to just enjoy the conversation again. We kept reaffirming each other about how much we really love each other a lot, and that we would really be so excited to see each other the moment I am able to visit. :)

She had an amazing time at college today. They celebrated all the birthday celebrants for the month of September. The college's really homely and the bond between the staff, lecturers and students are really really close. Now that is what you call a great college to study at, unlike mine last mine... Boo.

CG tonight was simply awesome too. Her coursemate, Eric, together with Ezen, an ex-customer from her shop came! Too bad Evelyn couldn't make it, but really, the whole atmosphere in CG was superb! Ezen and Eric blended in really with the rest of the members, people were really attentive to the preaching of the word, fellowship was great and they even did a mini celebration for Elaine then! She was just so blessed. Aww :)

Later on she gave a quick update to me, and that she was practically tired throughout the whole day. We gave each other a good night's sleep ahead and also pray that she'll do well for her driving class tomorrow morning.

All the best, Elaine! :D

September 22, 2011

Dear September 22, 2011. This marks a very historical moment for both of us. :)

Early morning, we woke up and chatted on Skype. Initially she was really not wanting to share anything.. probably it was due to stress.. but after a while she then explained that she wanted me to share more things with her.. she said she do not know much about me, as I seldom talk about my things to her. I cried when she said that, and I reflected upon how I really was with her all these time.

Not really sure whether it was an argument, but as we continue to progress in our conversation, she then finally revealed everything, how she was really disappointed with some people, how stressful she was with the responsibilities she has, and so much more. She also shared how she was coping with it, and I can't help but to comfort and encourage her even more then. We then started to feel so much better and I knew that my tears were really worth it :)

She came back needing to do her assignments. I accompanied her as much as I could online on MSN, just to be there for her whenever she needed me. Later on she requested to chat with each other through webcam on Skype.

It was truly a memorable night. We got so much closer than ever before. We shared our secrets even more and it was really really wonderful. Couldn't help but to appreciate, love and treasure her for everything she did. I promise Elaine.. that you would be my first, and my last. Love you always. Always and always. :)

September 21, 2011

Gave her a wake-up call this morning. We chatted for quite some time then, and I kept asking her whether I could help her in any kind of way. Nothing I could do really, as I can't write a report on her behalf, I can't do her drawing assignments, I can't help her organize her things and schedule for her CG. Man, why, oh why, could I not be there for her? :( So sad..

I tried all sort of way to cheer her up later on the day. I recorded a video for her and posted it on Facebook. She liked it, however it still didn't do much to help her with her stress. She got frustrated with her connection later that night. She was supposed to send pictures that she took for Onz Night, however Gmail kept rejecting her attachment. :/ Poor girl..

We didn't talk before we slept. Her Wi-Fi finally ceased to function and she mentioned she can't afford to talk as it will incur more costs on her phone bill. Only thing I could do was to pray for her. I promised to give her a wake up call again tomorrow, and hopefully through this rest, she will feel much better. Hmm.

September 20, 2011

Today she woke up by herself. She was basically still so stressed up with all the things she had to do. I spoke a bit with her on Skype upon my request, however she was really not in the mood to talk. I'm really so much worried for her. Wish I could do something about it. :(

Later on at night, she practically was even more stressed out. She went to her neighbour's house for an Open House gathering. It was supposed to be just for a short while, however her parents kept dragging the time chit-chatting there. Words can't describe how hopeless she felt during that situation. She had so many things to do, yet to leave would mean to be very rude.

Upon returning home, she basically did not want to do anything at all. She immediately wanted to sleep.. and I requested again to speak to her which was only for a shortwhile. She vented out her frustration and all.. and even I too felt really hopeless not being able to do anything then.

Sigh. Elaine, wish I could just hug you then. Hope you will feel much better tomorrow.

September 19, 2011

Today, she asked a very interesting question. Guess she was just concerned for the future. It is kinda cute to know about it, but at the same time, of course not taking it for granted.

Later on, another Facebook issue came up. Not wanting to go through the details, but at least we got it resolved now. Facebook, why you keep making changes now and then? There could a lot of buggy consequences that would happen. Urgh.

I can honestly say I was scared, and disappointed. It was also due to a mentally and emotionally draining day at work. Goes likewise with her at college too. Poor Elaine :( Her lecturer said her assignment had some flaws, at the same time another one of her course which requires her to use Adobe Illustrator is tough! The whole Adobe Illustrator thing is just plain.. technical @@ Really hope she could find someone to tutor her with it. She mentioned Sheyvin, and at the same time Dennis did state on his Facebook comment of how he is using it daily.

I am so sorry for being selfish, Elaine. :(

September 18, 2011

A wonderful Sunday morning. Today I just felt so lovey-dovey, just wanting to have her right beside me at the moment. Gave her a morning call today, as she had to go for her driving class pre-exams. She did okay for it, and will then need to prepare for the main exam which would be - of all of the days in this month- 28th September 2011, her very own birthday. Words cannot describe how baffled she is about it. Can't help but to be baffled together with her. Why her driving institute so bad :(

Right after work, I requested to talk with her and she agreed. The reason was because I just simply miss her so so so much. We chatted a while and she then had to proceed to do her assignment. I wished her all the best, and that later on, she showed me the results of her art.

IT WAS AMAZINGLY GOOD!!! She did this dot hatching thingy (I'm not really sure how people do it) and it did resemble the original picture a lot! Coolness! Can't stop giving her praises for it :) So happy that her gifts and talents + creativity has continually fed and expanded with the course she is doing now. Greater things are sure to come for her! :)

September 17, 2011

Did not gave her a wake up call this morning as she needed to just enjoy her rest and sleep to the fullest. There wasn't much plan for her today, so at least she can focus on finishing her assignments and plan for the rest of the week.

She attended church today with one of her classmates, Eric, together with David, who used to be her ex. David... is really a special case.. just by checking his Facebook, sometimes you just doubt certain things about him. Oh well. God be the judge of that. Eric on the otherhand really really enjoyed himself a lot, despite the guest speaker preaching about a very deep and solid message to the congregation. He also blended in very well with the rest of the members and he even said he will continue to join CHCKL for their service! How awesome is that! :D

Elaine posted on Facebook, how much she love me for being such an amazing friend for her. I can't deny how happy I was when she posted that. Others began to comment on it as well. Aww. Later on at night, she purposedly broke the rule herself by calling me with sweet names. I called her back that. It was just plain sweet of a conversation for the both of us then. 40 minutes went by just like that and she then had to sleep already. Wished we could talk more.. but well, the girl's gotta sleep. We wished each other a sweet goodnight and I would be giving her a wake up call tomorrow as she would need to go for her driving lessons. Wishing her the best ahead of it! :)

September 16, 2011

Gave her a really early wake-up call today as she has her Driving Class today. It's a public holiday in Malaysia, in conjunction with the 1Malaysia theme. I woke up 25 mins later than what was asked, but it was still okay. We then talked for a short while and had a sweet short talk that really put up smiles to our faces. :)

Stephanie from choir is coming to visit Philippines too, and I'm really really excited as to what presents she would be bringing all the way from Malaysia to me. :D

We chatted mostly on Google Talk today. Early morning itself, I found out that her driving instructor scolded her badly, just because of the 'bukit' test. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. How could he scold her insensitively.

EVIL DRIVING INSTRUCTOR. I SHALL HUNT YOU THE NEXT TIME I COME BACK. RAWRRRRRRRRRRRR. >(

So continued on, I suggested a couple of things to combat my struggle and she agreed on it. I really admire how she's taking a lot of effort keeping things under the boundary of a healthy relationship. Gotta buck up Kevin! Yoooosh!! She then hanged out with Zoey later and they had a good time just sharing things together. Right after that she'll be attending S.M.K. Dubcube and serve as a photographer under the media team. However... err.. she accidentally shaved her left eyebrow a way bit too much. Yikes. I don't really know how bad it will affect the way she looks at herself.. but how I wish I can just 'transfer' my abundant eyebrow hair to her at this point.

I met Stephanie, and she handed me the gifts. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!! Especially the wallet Elaine bought... just what I needed, as I don't have a wallet at the moment. Love you Elaine!!! :D Thanks for the cute lion too. Hehe.

Upon returning.. she acted quite different on the phone... like as if she was reluctant, uninterested. I was so worried then. And then she revealed that she was thinking if suddenly she would to stop all this. I got even more worried and saddened. Even though she said it is just her imagination, but to me, it was as if I was experiencing it at that point itself. We had a small argument.. but really thank God manage to clear things up. I cried a bit when I finally got to hear her laugh. Sigh. Elaine... Hopefully tomorrow would be a much better day.

September 15, 2011

I continued sharing where I left off last night... however she wasn't really in the mood to listen because she was still feeling very tired. I felt quite terrible because I guess the things I share to her are just plain boring. Sigh. Got to buck up I guess? She did say that I'm not funny.. and I have to agree with that. Sigh. Self-esteem dropped. But it's okay, she assured to me that she chose me for the person I really am, and that I still do create good jokes from time to time. :)

She had a couple of assignments to do today. I wanted to help her so badly. She didn't want any help for it, but I told her that it is still my offday and that at least I can lessen her burden a bit because she actually chose to do a tough picture for her other assignment... and what made it tough was because it was a LION... and that basically represented me. ::touched::

How could I not fall in love with this girl? :))

We chatted while she did her assignments. I told her that I will always be there for her if she needed anything. :) I managed to assist her out with one of the assignments she did. Was so happy just to know that I could lessen her burden a bit, though it wasn't much at all. Wish I could do more though. Argh.

At night she excitedly shared a lot of things. Though nowadays she sets a time limit for us to talk, it really doesn't matter to me, as long as I can hear her voice talking, her laughs, her giggles... that is all that I wish for :)

September 14, 2011

Early morning, we actually talked for a while. Initially it was only for a short time, but we ended up talking for an hour! We continued on where we left last night and just had another great time of sharing. :)

However... something terrible happened later on after we ended the call. Ethan was supposed to fetch her to college.. but he wasn't picking up his phone. Elaine really felt sad, angry and hopeless. She didn't like to be late, and Ethan was supposed to fetch her to college by 8.30am, as her class starts at 9.00am. In the end, her mom had to fetch her to college instead. At least she was able to call the college to notify them regarding this. Phew.

Later at night, she asked me a VERY interesting question on Whatsapp. I answered her and assured her that I wouldn't be the type of person she described. We talked for a short time only, as she really felt tired and has been sleeping very late throughout the week. She then said that we can continue later on that morning. I didn't mind at all, because it is all for her own good. Giving her a sweet morning call tomorrow!

September 13, 2011

Early morning, I gave her a morning call despite what had happened last night. Though she didn't mention it on Whatsapp, I just knew that I had to call her to wake her up. And yes, she woke up and thanked me for waking her up, and I apologized for what had happened last night.

Things really have been picking up well for her in college. Really happy for her regarding this. She's also able to fully utilize her DSLR camera as there is also a photography class included in her course. :)

Later on that night, we had a really great talk again. We talked and answered more questions about the topic we have been discussing lately. It is really good just to be so open and really understanding even more. We then gave each other a goodnight's wish ahead and will be looking forward for another following great day.

September 12, 2011

It's the mooncake festival season back in Malaysia. Ah.. I kinda miss those mooncakes, especially the snowskin ones. I wonder whether Elaine loves mooncakes too.. hmm.

Anyways as for today, we weren't able to talk on the phone at night due to some problems that happened to my phone. It dropped and suddenly couldn't receive any network transmissions, and to make things worst, even the sound was not working. I was so sad as Elaine actually attempted to call me several times, yet I wasn't able to pick up her calls. My phone was finally working only about 15 minutes after last call, but when I tried to call her.. she was already sleeping.

Sigh. The limitations of technology. I just wish, hope and pray she'll have a good rest, relaxing sleep and an amazing day ahead for her tomorrow.

September 11, 2011

Due to our very long conversation last night, I basically decided not to sleep anymore in fear that I might not be able to wake up, at the same time give her a wake up call as well. Throughout the day I kept feeling so bad for causing her to have little sleep only, knowing that she'll have a long day ahead tomorrow. Eeks.

Her ex-boyfriend, David, would be joining her CG soon. He attended service with them today and she's still very cautious to what he might do with them. Other than that, there would be some changes on her birthday celebration plans. Would not be able to go to the beach this year as most of her members would not be able to attend if it is going to be held at a farther place. Oh well, there is still next year :)

To add, she got blessed with a NEW CAMERA LENS. Didn't get the detail of it, but it looks really really AWESOME! God is really good to her and her family! Really happy for her :)

Later on, we talked about our topic that night. We got to know more things, and also asked situational cases regarding it. However if possible, we should limit on talking on this topic as per requested by Elaine herself. I am more than happy and willing to comply to her request. I'm just so in love with her more and more each day. ::blush:: :)

Going to give her a wake up call again. Wishing her a great night's sleep ahead!

September 10, 2011

Call her early this morning because I checked on her Facebook message from Phei Wen that they have a meeting at 10.00am in the morning. However in the end, she wasn't able to go as she wanted to spend more time with her family at home. College life sure did take much of her time, not forgetting her other commitments in church, ministry and also with her friends.

Her birthday celebration plans are into progress right now. Teasingly reminding her to not check my Facebook messages :p She said I shouldn't be so worried as she did not want to spoil the surprise for her as well. Phei Wen's making such a big effort and sacrifice on her part to make sure everything goes as smoothly as possible. She just recovered from her sickness... and what more she needed to study for her upcoming exams which is about 17 days from now. Helping her as much as I can too. Elaine, you are really blessed with an amazing cell member. :)

Later that night she was so engrossed with watching Chuck. She really really LOVED watching that show and she told me how it sometimes relates to our current relationship at times. ::blush:: She watched 2 CD's at one go that entire night, which was about 8-10 episodes. I proceeded to go ahead and sleep first, but she then proceeded to ask whether I would like to talk to her for awhile. I was more than happy to accept, but at the same time concerned if she is pressured in doing so.. I so want to hug her so tight to show my appreciation towards her.

She talked about Chuck in the beginning, and I was so happy and glad to know she was really enjoying herself. Really love it when she's just so happy.. when she speaks with joy and laughter. After that we continued on our topic of conversation last night. It was really one very memorable night as many more secrets were unfold.. emotions, feelings.. all uncovered. It was also a night where I was just so open and was not shy anymore to talk and share and also to ask more personal questions at her. We kept talking and talking for hours, yet I did not even notice the time!!! And there she was, needing to wake up early the next morning, and then do her assignments. She knew the time yet, she allowed us to continue talking.


What a sacrifice!!!!


CAN I MARRY YOU RIGHT NOW ELAINE TAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ::screams::