She didn't reply a single Whatsapp message I sent to her today until late in the evening. I was initially utterly disappointed but has come to realize that I was being to clingy. Guess I just miss her so so much. She then called to check how I was doing, however I acted like a jerk, being emotional about it.. and it totally ruined her mood.
Later on the night, we talked about it.. and boy was she really sad, upset and disappointed with how things are at the moment.. She even mentioned she wasn't even sure about how things would work between us anymore. I did my best to constantly apologize for my unacceptable behaviour and told her that we would really need to talk about our expectations for each other.
After an hour of so of talking.. she finally explained what she really felt with the whole current issue till now.. I was glad.. because now we are able to talk, discuss and plan for things between us to be better. I myself promise to be better for her. I'm tired of giving her a heartache all the time. She doesn't deserve all this now. I want her to be happy.
Finally we managed to joke around a bit.. Cried in joy and relief when I heard her laugh. That was what I really wanted to hear. Will personally try my best to come back and visit this year to pop the 'question' to her.. She told me to inform her leaders and parents about it first, and of course on my side I completely acknowledged about it.
Father, continue to uphold this relationship in Your mighty hands. I'll do my best on my part, and I pray that You will keep sustaining our love for each other till the end of time. Let me be the best partner for her ever.
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